mushroom

2009-11-17T01:46:00.000-08:00

hahas... im eating blueberry yoghurt... :) lols... so hungry now... waiting for my mum to come back... :) why she took so long???

2009-11-16T20:16:00.000-08:00

330 days...

Forget it, somethings should remain unsaid... well, some of my post are not meant for u so pls dun think tat everything i write here are for u... ya, anger, everyone do haf... well, not only u wan to do well... pls, when im working so hard, where r u??? juz go & think... hey, i can play and i can be serious at times... it's juz tat when im serious, u didn't see it... so dun say tat i didn't put my heart in it... i can put alot of heart in it but then, when my hearts are there, ur hearts are not there, u think it works??? hmm, it takes "two-hands" to clap... it muz work both ways... i can tel u i work double hard tis time round... although i msg and i seems like i cant be bothered in class but when i'm at home, I DOES MY WORK... if u nv see it, pls dun say i nv do it... LIJUN, search ur conscious, did u study at home??? yes, i definitely did... did u listen in class, yes, i did... u can say i nv listen but can u read my mind??? although my face look like i didn't listen in class but then i did okay... as usual, time flies... i can study till i go crazy and there u r enjoying... tis is not funny... i wish i can get out too... well, each person is different in which make them so special... so dun compare... Seriously, I’ve been working on this crazy module for quite a while and i've been super busy studying and working... so sorry for not picking up ur calls and replying ur msg... hmm, sometimes, i saw ur msg and missed call but juz busy at tat particular moment so did not reply so pls forgive me for tat... I missed de time... I got too wrapped up in the work... I hit a point where i was working OT+ skipping meals... but thank god, i didn't haf gastrict on tat day... omg, LIJUN are u desperate to get something off your chest??? hmm... let me think??? well, i do... it makes me wan 2 stab things whenever i see it... Wad a snobby, awful, distracting adjective... OK, so it’s a bit amateurish but as a quick and easy way of turning the written word into something more dynamic, it’s pretty cool... pls clear ur mindset... stop thinking tat i will hate u... well, i dun hate ppl, it's ppl tat makes me hate them... foolstop...

OFF...

2009-03-11T02:23:00.000-07:00

Haha... Finally...

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. snazzy at
times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods
about the past and the old friends. Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover.

2008-11-19T20:26:00.001-08:00

Karying, i miss u... :) lalalalalala...bored... how i wish we can turn back de clock... Alrite, study study study... i'm mugging... take care... love u karying... :)

2008-11-02T01:21:00.000-07:00

ting & shan, dun be sad okay... Cheer up... everything will be fine... haf a good sleep...tml will be better...

hmm... :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(... ytd everyone get ready, bath, put on our white t-shirt and we went down 2 my great grandma funeral... so all my relatives were there... then i sit there 4 like a while, i heard vibration, so i took out my phone... guess wad??? beela msg me... :) lalala... so i reply her slowly cuz i was praying and kneeling down at de same time... so when i told her i'm at de funeral, guess wad she reply??? "huh, who die??? u wif who??? dun be sad okay, muz be strong..." hahas... at de same time we console each other... lols... Alrite, thks fiona & beela okay... i was fine ytd... then 11:30am we walk behind de coffin car, slowly and we cried... wow, tat moment was terrible, everyone cry out so loudly... then after tat when we took de bus to "bright hill"... we were all there 2 witness our "grandma, great grandma, great great grandma being push into de "fire"... i hope she will rest in peace... i saw de flowers sent by others... they wrote "condolence"... with deepest sympathy to "..........." end up they throw away all de flowers... okay, now it's over... juz hope everyone will be okay...

2008-11-01T02:15:00.000-07:00

i'm so stupid...

But I Can't Deny My Love 4 U...

Then i Understand Wad is "True Love"...

But u muz understand tat...

Then Suddenly...

While, i think back...

But Then...

But i Learned...

Then i Run...

Think Back???

Looking at de Clock???

Wish to Know???

To u...

But I still Miss u & Love u deeply...

i promise u ...

Pls Read it...

Finally...

2008-10-30T04:39:00.000-07:00

okay, how should i start???

hmm, i'm glad tat u finally understand wad love is all abt??? nabila, fiona, claire, karying, dewi, serena, peisi, kenneth, gwyn, fish... look all tis ppl haf lots of link... when i read sth juz now, i was stund, i dun noe wad i should do but i feel like crying, "WHY"??? see 4 urself... i dun noe wad i should do??? but everyday i haf 2 face de same old thing... i dun wan tis thing 2 affect de frenzship between nabila & me... now i understand, love can't be force... now, u haf 2 face de same concept too... face it... maybe tis will be good... dun ask 4 sympathy... no use... wad is done is done... juz dun continue doing de wrong thing... i realise de mistakes though is not completely my fault but still i dun noe wad i should do??? i can't run away from u but i juz felt so miserable... understand me will u... "stupid is wad i can describe about me, i was so stupid"... i really treasure tis frenzship, i dun wan it 2 end okay... beela & fiona, i think u guys noe wad happen 2day rite... "Ham & Cheese Biscuit", wad happen, it was dump into de bin... "why"??? is it intentionally??? i regret 4 dumping u into de bin... i'm sorry... it's too late 2 grab u back... why should i be affected??? why i felt tis way, becuz i care... i love u but in de other way round u dun love me??? love involve both parties... if 1 dun love de other, how can de relationship go on... i think of de things u does, it hurts me... i felt terrible in fact i felt more dirty... believe me or not, u r not in my shoe... i dun noe how 2 say, Traitors, Betrayer??? i'm afraid... i'm very very disappointed??? can someone teach me wad 2 do??? i'm loss...

beela... alot has happen 2 us, i wish i can go into ur mind & read wad's on ur mind... i hope we will stay like tis 4ever??? rmb u once wrote 2 me "we r close gurl okay"... when i saw tis sentence, tears almost drop down by my eyes but i can't let it drop cuz it was in a very high class place... i wish de bond in us will stay like tis 4ever... lala, beela, bearla, elmo... i miss u, seriously sometimes when i saw ur face turn pale, i noe wad u r thinking but i juz kept quiet... i noe how u feel girl & sometimes i felt so hurt when ur vain appears... sec 3, in pula ubin, i saw u... at de jetty before boarding de boat i kept looking at u, wondering will we be frenz later on??? once i reach de jetty, we had 2 walk 2hours be4 we reach de campsite... guess wad, we haf 2 do alot of cheers, when i was cheering, i kept thinking wheather we will be in de same group??? but apparently we r not... but nvm we had fun in our own groups... as day past by, we haf already become NCO... sec 4??? when we haf camp again, (ATC) i was in "leo group" but still can't be in de same group as u... nvm, i juz rmb u & whenever i get 2 bath, i'm happy cuz everyone will bath tgt & i might haf a chance 2 bump into u...

was wondering???
6:00am???
games???
element???
field cooking???
tent pitching???
campfire???
bathing???
lights out???
which activities will i get 2 see u???

but still can't see u... nvm...

during dec last year, i met u... i was happy...

then 1st day 2 ITE... i rmb we were both so scare & we keep hope tat we can be in de same class... Finally we reach sch, when we are walking 2 de auditorum??? we are so panic... when we look at de "Name List", scolling down de index number... i saw (23) Siti Nabila Bte Mohammad... then next i felt scare, i was really hoping tat i can haf a companion juz like u... then guess wad, next i saw (24) Lim Li Jun... I was so happy & we both walk in happily like crazy... rmb we sat next 2 each other, wondering how will our class be like??? all tis memories juz flash down my mind juz now... carry on, when we found our Teacher... "Mr Goh Choon Poh... we find him very nice & funny... then after auditorum, we went 2 class with our CE... then we do alot of things tgt, like, going 2 de toilet, eating, sitting, playing, grouping & now even role play... so many things has happen & we r still grouping tgt... FRENZ??? i really hope tis frenzship won't end... since cherlynn came, we r always seperated, why??? cuz i feel bad when i leave her alone, then when i went wif her, u r left alone??? tat time i really wonder how??? should i cut myself into half??? but all tis has past... after she's gone, we r back??? there was once we had a cold shoulder??? why??? u noe it & i noe it... it's a secret between us... beela, see... so much has happen??? so much, so much, so much... as u say... our frenzship has a story behind & u say u hope tis story won't end rite... i hope it won't end too... nabila, listen, no matter wad happen, i dun wan 2 lose u... hope we will be staying like tis 4ever...

dewi, fiona... thks 4 everything... wow, tat period was such a bad period 4 me, thks for all de patient & thks for tolerating... i dun noe wad's more i can say but really i'm very happy 2 noe u guys... can i juz cry everything out... i really felt very bad... omg, why muz i hate her??? why why why??? why muz i felt tis way??? rmb i always ask WHY & HOW??? i also dun noe why??? dewi, fiona... i rmb there was once at cafe 1... i was standing outside cafe 1 alone & i was very upset... no 1 was there wif me... u noe wad... i saw all of u in cafe 1 eating & talking so happily while i was outside crying feeling so bad... then u guys appear... i went up front 2 call u guys, actually i didn't intend to call u guys cuz i was afraid but i still call u guys in de end... i rmb clearly, i hub u guys, my heart juz sank totally??? it hurt terribly... :( i was very touch at tat moment... then after tat u guys ask me 2 join u guys, i did not agree 2 it, so i went up 2 3rd floor alone... saw sattish, he came & he talk 2 me... from there, i started 2 smile... i rmb everything so clearly, i juz can't get rid of them... dewi, fiona... thks 4 being there...

claire... while swimming, we chat... after chatting each time, i feel tat i'm slowly throwing everything out but rite now, i'm thinking of all de things... omg, i miss de laughing pills... i wan it back... but i dun noe why now i'm feeling terrible... i feel great when i float wif u... wow, i still can rmb de water is so cold... i really admire de thing u do in de water... i dun noe wad is tat but when i saw 2 of de legs up above de water... i felt different... is like watching u dance in de water... seriously, i feel like floating now... claire will u feel better after u done tat in de water... if yes i wan 2 learn, provided i won't get cramp... jk jk... anyway do u feel better after i haf massage 4 u??? sorry if i massage it too harshly... "fruit juice"... tat was ur favourite drink, i guess??? saw u drinking it almost everyday... "BANANA" rmb??? hmm "FATS ar FATS"... sorry i always say tat... but tat was wad i'm most afraid about, i guess everyone is afraid but not as mad as me... so pls dun mind me... sorry... hmm, nonsensical??? i miss everything we does... i hope our frenship will remain & i hope it won't end...

karying thks ar... pls cheer up, dun be sad... juz follow ur heart alrite... wadever decision u make, i will support u... dun cry anymore... crying won't help in fact it will make u go blind... so think carefully when u drop another tears... "think wheather is it worth it"??? dun get stress up, when u feel like crying, juz relax urself & think of de happy memories tat u haf... like tat u will feel better... seriously, i haf been through wad u are facing... trust me, time will prove u everything... in life we will always face prob so dun avoid but face it & solve it... maybe meeting up can solve everything then why not meet up??? think carefully before u make any decision okay... dun worry, i will be there 4 u always k... smilez more... cheer up alrite...

2008-10-16T18:49:00.000-07:00

Ouch... my arms hurts... hahas... lols... guess wad, i had a great fall 2day... lalala... i hope my arms will heal quickly, i'm in pain... hahas... hmm, chat wif fiona under block ytd... then chat wif edwin too... lols... hmm, Copy-cat... :) i'm so happy, we went TM tgt wif beela ytd... finally we can go tgt tgt tgt... yeah... hahas hahas hahas... we sign on our photos till we went crazy... :) wow, so tired... went yishun 4 dinner wif my family ytd... hahas... reach home around 12am... bath & went 2 sleep... hahas... oh wait, before i sleep, i go put medicine on my arms & i wrap it 1st... i scare de wound will get infected... i dun wan 2 get infected, later muz chop off my arms give GYWN see... hahas... lols... but it's really a very tiring day & we had so much fun... lalalalalalalalalala... alrite... shall end here... bye... tc... :)

2008-10-15T06:20:00.001-07:00

2day was fun... at last de few of us get 2 find out somethings from each other... alrite... i shouldn't say much... COPY-CAT should get lost... bye... take care...

2008-10-13T20:25:00.000-07:00

hahas... Kbox!!! :) lols... wan 2 hear gywn sing??? wow, serena voice is so nice!!! i think she can go be a singer... "hahas"... hmm, eat Katong laksa, hahas... so nice... we sing & sing & sing... Finally we went home, walk home wif fiona... hahas... was very hungry, finally get 2 eat de food tat my mum cook... :) :) :) :) lalalalalalala... so boring, ytd 1st day of sch... starting was scary but after tat everything went out fine... luckily it turn out smoothly... then sad... beela went bowling... lols... but anyway we all haf our own activities... hope de rest of de day will be fine 4 everyone... :) lols... take care...

2008-10-02T08:54:00.000-07:00

2008-10-01T06:25:00.001-07:00

hmm??????????????? guess wad??? it muz be a punishment from god... i juz receive a news from my mum 2day... u noe wad she say??? she told me tat my dad uncle juz pass away... is tis a joke??? i believe my mum won't take a person death as a joke... oh my god??? am i dreaming, am i thinking too much??? i ask myself & i slap myself u noe... after a slap, i realise it's real, i'm not dreaming... okay, i'm at a loss... i dun noe wad 2 say, i dun noe wad 2 do & i dun noe how i should react... my silbling doesn't noe wad had happen, they can still play & laugh like nobody business... but wad 2 do??? can't blame them... (children are innocent)... i'm totally at a loss... i really really dun noe wad can i do... i can tel tat my dad hurts 100times more than me... i hope i can be there 2 ease his pain... but i believe my dad is strong, after he find out tis news, he did not show any reaction, in fact he kept quiet... i wish i can go into his heart & find out how he feel... even if he dun breathe a word, i can feel tat he is upset... i can't do anything now... he has gone, everyone is gonna be strong... later my dad & my mum are going 2 de funeral place while me, i haf 2 stay at home & look after my siblings... if i haf de chance, i wish i can see him 4 de last time... but i think i dun haf de chance... nvm... if i go, then my siblings haf to go too, later if they go, they will be sad... i think my parent dun wan my 2 sis 2 worry cuz their PSLE is round de corner... so is better 2 juz stay at home... sometimes i wish i can be a child again... i juz hope they can pass their exams... hais... i really admired my dad... he is such a wonderful father i ever had... i noe he is stong & i hope he can accept tis fact... lucky my dad is strong... but i'm still worried abt him... juz hope tat he will be fine & i hope he can drive carefully... Okay, another prob... recently my mum talk 2 me abt her health prob... all along, i noe tat my mum is weak cuz she has a illness since i was young... but recently my mum told me tat she went 4 a check up & guess wad... she told me tat she might haf 2 go 4 a operation... i was like stunt... i asked my mum: mummy, r u kiddy, dun be mad la... u r fine, why muz u go 4 a operation... guess wad she reply: i told u i went 4 a check up rite & my doctor say tat there's a water ball (i think is a waterball if i not wrong but i noe is a ball inside her stomach), i haf 2 go through a operation 2 get it out if not i will die...then from there i noe my mum is not kidding... now, she is still not sure wheather she haf 2 go through de operation or not but she haf 2 go for a check up again... up till now, my silblings still dun noe anything??? there's so much things tat they dun noe... even my mum own health prob she also dun wan my siblings 2 worry... my mum told me tat if she really haf 2 go 4 de operation, she hope tat she can still live a longer life after de operation cuz she still wan 2 see de 4 of us get married & start our own family... there's so much things i haf 2 worry abt... but wad abt my siblings??? my siblings are really very naughty, i dun noe how 2 teach them??? wadever i say, they won't listen... lols... hahas... wad can i do??? hais... i juz hope tat my dad uncle can rest in peace, my mum health can get better... my siblings can be more obedient... i hope everything will be alrite... i'm so tired... suddenly so many bad news for me... am i suppose 2 laugh or cry??? can i be like my siblings??? can i pretend tat i dun noe anything & juz haf fun??? no, i guess i might not be able 2 do it... okay, i'm gonna be strong... i can't fall at tis point of time... i hope & i pray tat things will get better... i can't help much, i'm so sick too... i got no mood 2 do anything rite now... but i will pray... God pls bless those who are having probs... Alrite... i should stop here, no more tears... i'm not going 2 shear anymore tears... :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(
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1st-my siblings
2nd-my parents
3rd-my frenz
4th-myself
5th-my study...

ain't i suppose 2 put my study in de 1st place??? but how can i???

beela, fiona, angela, claire, karying, huiqin... so many ppl... i miss u guys so much... fasting month is over... Happy Hari Raya 2 all de malays... take care alrite... hope 2 see u soon... :D last but not least, i miss OB... hahas... there's so much laughter... hais... i wish i can laugh like mad again... :)

2008-09-30T00:10:00.000-07:00

yo!!! i haf uploaded some pic tat we took on tat special day... hahas... De times angela & me spend tgt... wow... it's like so fun... Alrite, i shall let de pics do de talking... :)

omg, we r in de dark... :( so scary...
Finally, we saw de lights... :) it's so beautiful...
Cheers... :D lalala... tat's all... i'm waiting 4 more plans 2 come... hahas, it's so fun... i'm so tired... :)

2008-09-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

Reality??? i hate it... Alrite, tortise!!! hmm, i guess it's not too late, perhaps only u can turn back de clock... i dun believe de clock has flies past so quickly but still i haf no choice but 2 believe it...

why???
We enjoy warmth becuz we haf been cold... We appreciate light becuz we haf been in darkness... By de same token, we can experience joy becuz we haf known sadness... However long de nite, de dawn will break... Believe me, A single death is a tragedy; a million deaths is a statistic... There r as many nites as days, and de one is juz as long as de other in de year's course... Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and de word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness... life is changing everyday, so does things... De silence tat guards de tomb does not reveal God's secret in de obscurity of de coffin, and de rustling of de branches whose roots suck de body's elements do not tell de mysteries of de grave, by de agonized sighs of my heart announce to de living de drama which love, beauty, and death have performed... Wad comes around, goes around...

u...
Red is de ultimate cure for sadness... Ever has it been tat love knows not its own depth until de hour of separation... Dun worry, There will always be death and taxes; however, death doesn't get worse every year... "CALM DOWN"... Don't fear failure so much tat u refuse to try new things... De saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have... Cherish each & single 1 of them... Always RMB "Love is nv lost... If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify de heart... Cheer up...

Tortise...
Depression, when it’s clinical, is not a metaphor... It runs in families, and it’s known to respond to medication and to counseling. However truly u believe there’s a sickness to existence tat can nv be cured, if u’re depressed u will sooner or later surrender and say: I juz dun want to feel bad anymore... De shift from depressive realism to tragic realism, from being immobilized by darkness to being sustained by it, thus strangely seems to require believing in de possibility of a cure… "it juz takes time"... When I look back on all these worries, I remember de story of de old man who said on his deathbed tat he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened... so why let it bothered u so much??? trust me, time will prove u everything... life is nv easy & it's nv hard, it's juz a matter of how u live ur life... hey babe, u got a choice 4 ur life... so make ur choices carefully... Love nv dies a natural death... It dies becuz we dun noe how to replenish its source... It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals... It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing... Juz give urself some time 2 sort out everything, dun worry, i will be walking through tis path wif u, i promise u, no matter how hard tis path is, i will still continue 2 walk through it wif u... i'm not afraid of death, but i'm afraid of losing u... pls dun do anything silly... Life is pleasant... Death is peaceful... It's de transition tat's troublesome... Better by far u should forget and smile than tat u should remember and be sad rite??? Love can sometimes be magic... But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion... so juz let it be an illusion... it's will be better... For all sad words of tongue and pen, de saddest are these, 'It might have been...' They tat sow in tears shall reap in joy... Dun worry so much alrite... think of de bright side... :):):):):):):):) Babe, Sadness flies away on de wings of time... trust me!!! okay, i'm tired... i'm going 2 bed now... Goodnite babe... haf a good dream... sleep well & tml will be a better day... take care... miss u!!! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...
hang on, i juz had a little dream...
hey God, i really dun noe wad u mean... seems like salvation comes only in our dreams... i feel my hatred grow all de more extreme... hey God, can this world really be as sad as it seems??? Sometimes I feel so happy, Sometimes I feel so sad... Sometimes I feel so happy, But mostly u juz make me mad... Babe, u juz make me mad... Linger on, ur pale blue eyes... If it makes u happy, It can't be tat bad If it makes u happy Then why are you so sad??? okay... i'm dreaming... I hear a thunder in de distance see a vision of a cross I feel de pain tat was given on tat sad day of loss... A lion roars in de darkness only he holds de key... A light to free me from my burden and grant me life eternally, should haf been dead on a Sunday morning banging my head... No time for mourning ain't got no time??? Lying in my bed again, and I cry cos u're not here, Crying in my head again and I noe tat it's not clear... Put ur hands, put ur hands inside my face and see tat it's juz u, But it's bad and it's mad and it's making me sad becuz I can't be with u... i dun noe why i fall 4 u, but i noe we can't be tgt... my heart hurts, i'm confuse... de least i can do now, is 2 ignore but i juz can't... i love u & at de same time i'm afraid of telling u... okay i shall continue my sleep... hopefully tml will be better...

Goodnite, Honey Dream... :P ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...

2008-09-19T06:48:00.000-07:00

Well, haf u seen a person tat play 3 sports in 1 day??? sports like (swimming, bowling & cycling???) maybe no but i did it... i did all these juz within 1 day & my whole body is aching rite now!!! hahas... but nvm, cuz i had fun... life is suppose 2 be like tis... so do cherish everything u do...

hahas, i called u, guess u dun haf my number... u got a shock rite??? but nvm, it's okay, de shock is over... overall our conversation is okay so i shall disturb u again next time... so sad, u juz dun like animals... but they are so cute!!! :) alrite, go enjoy ur dinner...

yeah, u idiot, i dun think u deserve all tis, all u do is compare, wad else u noe??? u noe sth??? ren bi ren hui qi si ren... so stop comparing & all of u juz GET A LIFE!!! enough of all de nonsense... okay, i can't be bothered, i'm juz pissed... bye idiots...

hahas, thk A, B, C 4 helping me... i really dun noe why, i'm scare... u noe wad??? last time when i'm learning de same thing, i had a horror experience... i had tis super duper good frenz, when we r playing in de water, there was once, she push me down into de water & from there i got scare so i think now i haf 2 slowly overcome tis fear... i noe is hard but i won't give up so easily... A, B, C... thks 4 teaching... i will buck up... wow, blowing Bubbles... hahas, i think 2day i learn alot more things... maybe is becuz tis person words give me de strength 2 do more... okay, i will buck up... thk 4 everything... i hope it will get better...

wow, i can't believe gwyn win me but nvm, he win me juz by abit... lols... anyway i dun mind cuz is juz a game... yeah... alrite i'm so tired... i hope things will get better... claire, Hi-5... [peace out]

2008-09-18T05:01:00.000-07:00

Finally, i'm done wif my "LAST paper"... wow, so much stress... finally i'm going 2 relax abit... "Happy go lucky"... Hahas... so fiona, did u enjoy laughing for de whole journey in de bus??? gywn is eating "chicken chop" for dinner... yummy... hehe... fish??? hmm, i guess she's outside wif her frenz... lols... claire, dun worry, i haf already send her home... erm, not send her home but i send her 2 de MRT station... alrite, i noe i'm lame... hahahahahaha... dun say i'm lame okay... hehe... well, everything is so FUNNY... why??? i dun noe but i doubt it's good 2 laugh... cuz someone say's tat laughing can make u lose fats... whahahaha... i bet if it's true i will make de person tat say tis laugh everyday so tat she can lose fats... hahas... but i dun noe wheather if it's true??? i miss heaven... omg, i'm going 2 heaven soon again... hahas...

once upon a time, i believe...
okay, i really hope u can give up... i dun wan 2 see u fall deeper... i tel u sth okay, u muz fall down sometimes in order 2 stand up again... maybe u dun noe tat u haf already fall down but now tat we haf already help u stand up, we dun wan 2 see u fall down again!!! we r wondering wad we should do??? should we juz leave u alone, let u fall & stand up by urself or keep helping u??? if u fall everytime & we keep helping u up, it's not gonna help... tel us wad can we do??? i really dun noe... sometimes we juz wan 2 leave u alone & let u stand up by urself but i can't... it's painful when i see u like tis & it's hurts me... okay wadever i say or do, u won't understnd cuz u can't see... they ask me 2 leave u alone & let u stand up urself & i think tis time i should not help u anymore cuz de more i help u, de more u won't feel de pain & u won't pick urself up... so i should try tis last method & i hope it works... "it's hard 2 forget somethings" i understand but sometimes wad is not meant 2 be yours, u haf 2 let go... "wad goes around comes around" so let go & new things will come 2 u... i can promise u, once u let go, u will feel 100times better... u won't feel so miserable... alrite... i won't name anyone but someone will understand wad i'm saying cuz we r trying 2 help u... we dun wan 2 see u in tis state... i hope wad i do 4 u, u can appreciate... u can get angry wif me, but i'm trying 2 help u... i rather u hate me then i see u suffer...

u??? u??? u???
Arrr... BPF... i really dun noe la, tis idiot always try 2 act but i guess she can't act any much better then a COCONUT... wad's de prob here??? wad is all those rubbish about??? muz u
blabber around??? pls... tis is getting off my nerve... i juz can't stand YOUUUUUU!!! if u r not happy, kindly get lost... i didn't ask u 2 stay in de 1st place... why muz u be a KPO!!! WHY??? WHY??? WHY??? didn't i told u i'm happy wif wad i haf, why muz u always grab my things... i haf enough of u, juz get lost la... i dun noe la, i dun wish 2 do all tis also but u r forcing me... i bet it's not only ME... haiya, u can say wadever u wan but do u think i will give a damn??? i tel u, no, i dun give a damn 2 a STUPID COCONUT like u... even serena can be 100times more better then u la... u think ur coconut very big izzit, if big then chop off... so tat u can haf no more coconut & u won't get a chance 2 rmb anything... sorry 2 say all tis, but i juz can't stand u, it's u who force me 2 do all tis... "CAN U SHUT UP UR IDIOT COCONUT & UR MOUTH"...

2008-09-15T07:29:00.000-07:00

"Playing" "Posting"
"Acting"
"Cool"
"Serious"
"Emo"

okay, i'm so tired... should i call u a JERK, MORON, IDIOT, SLUT, BITCH OR WAD???
i can't ask 4 anything, i can't do anything...

But can i haf peace???
i wan nth but juz peace... pls, i beg u...

can u pls let me off... i SERIOUSLY had ENOUGH!!!
i'm sorry but i can't stand it anymore... pls get lose... i hate U, U, U & U...

i wan my HAPPY life, so does everyone...
can't u see tat my life is so colourful??? if u r blind then 4get it... but pls let me off...

"enough is enough"...

when i scan thorugh all my pic, i dun noe why, i juz hate it...

although ur pics r not inside but i really hate u...

i juz wan 2 tel u...
"pls, let me off"...

seeing u is a greatest hurts in my heart,
i dun noe why???
but every moments i saw u, it bleeds...
not a little but alot...
u won't bleed, i bleed...
so juz get lost...
i'm sorry...
i dun noe why i juz burst out alrite...
but i really really need a BREAK!!!
it juz hurt terribly...
dun ever ask or bother,
cuz u r a freak,
tat dun deserve "ANYTHING"...
a freak like u,
kills a person a day...
pls get lost,
cuz i dun wan de whole world 2 collapse...
"FREAK"
listen up,
u dun deserve anything... seriously, u dun...
sorry 2 say tis but it's de fact...
lastly i hate u more then i hate everything...

i'm so happy tat dewi is back...

i miss her...

finally, i saw her...

thks Gywn & fiona!!!

thks 4 everything...

i caught a cold juz now, i'm going 2 sleep early...

goodnite!!! :)

take care... :P

2008-09-13T01:14:00.000-07:00

ytd went back to SJC!!! it was fun & i get to meet all my Dearest squadmates... i miss them so much... hmm, but not all turn up... :( alrite anyway i did not sleep ytd, tis is de 2nd time i break my record okay... hahas... talk 2 some of de juniors ytd & we play a crocodie game... i still dun understand, each time when it reaches my turn, de crocodie will bite my fingers... Ouch... hahas, but anyway we still had fun... "can u imagine us playing badminton in de middle of de nite when everyone else was sleeping..."can't rite??? but still we play... it's like so hot... but nvm, we enjoy ourself... hahas... reach home at 8am, bath & i went straight 2 bed... i'm juz so tired... hahas... alrite i juz hope everything will get better...

Oh ya, i forgot...
Faisal: Bacon is still my best choice... though i like it but i will nv get to taste it cuz singapore doesn't sell de nicer Bacon... Hahas...

2008-09-05T23:11:00.000-07:00

wow!!! Gywn... :) Claire... :) Fiona... :) Jun... :) hahas... ytd was so fun... celebrated a important person birthday & we had so much laughter here & there... erm, went home at 1am, can u consider it early??? hehe... but i was so tired... de whole day was filled with plans... hahas... i guess everyone had enjoyed themself very much ytd... hahas, we've done sth very meaningful untill we laugh at ourself continuing non-stop... we hope tat de person will be happy cuz we are very happy wif her so de things tat we haf done 4 her, hope she will apprciate it... hahas... lol... nah, maybe we should do tis more often, so tat we can be happy everyday... hahas, so stress with BPF can... test's coming... but anyway we shall mug tgt... goodluck 4 all de test OB... jiayous!!! :) Gywn (5:)01), Jun(5:01), Fiona(5:00), Claire(5:03)... Opps, why am i writing their names??? hahas, i've got my reason. i won't tel... lols!!! Frenz 4ever!!! ehh, dun 4get my hearts alrite... my drawing nice rite, hmm, 1st time i draw 4 u guys okay... hahas, juz ignore me, i'm talking craps... omg, i'm going crazy over thursday test, i wonder wad will happen... hahas, but i guess we will all enjoy... :) alrite, i miss u guys... i shall go & study now, goodluck ppl & take care... see ya!!! :D

2008-09-01T01:18:00.000-07:00

hahas, i read alot of story books & ytd i read a book tat is very touching till my tears drop out... i really hope de society can slowly accept de handicapped ppl... every human has a feelings, i believe we muz treat everyone equally... ahhh, look like alot of ppl are getting sick, me too... hahas, went 2 see doctor ytd & get my medicine... omg, i juz hate eating all those bitter syrup medicine, it juz taste so horrible, but if we wan 2 get cure, then we haf 2 endure de horrible taste... hahas... i hope tat everyone will recover soon...

my dearest frenz, pls cheer up, i now tat so much pain has come 2 u but wad can u do??? juz 4get abt all de pain & live ur life happily again... whoosh, when times is up, we haf 2 go, so i hope u can take tis chance 2 treasure ur life, i now it's hard 4 u but juz carry on... no matter how bad ur life is, in future it will get better... i haf alot of prob too but still i'm living, so pls think... "dun take things for granted"... i noe how u r feeling rite now cuz it applies 2 me too... "de 1st time u fail, is de last time u tried"... so dun give up too... rmb wad i told u alrite... "tomorrow will be a better day... hmm, pls take care of ur health... i wan u 2 recover soon, hope 2 see u soon & dun give up alrite... abt de dream, sometimes dreams r fake so dun believe it too much, unless it happens... dun think too much k... alritem, sorry i can't talk 2 u, i'm really very sick but i hope u will understand wad i'm going 2 tel u... okay, i'm going 2 rest, u rest well too... sleep early 2nite alrite... dun 4get i will be there 4 u no matter wad... miss u so much & love u... hehe... okay, i'm going 2 take a nap now... see u... take care!! :D

2008-08-31T03:48:00.000-07:00

okay, i'm going 2 blog... i dun noe why, but i noe i juz wan 2 say everything out... i dun noe wad u wan alrite??? i had enough... u noe wad??? i dun noe wad is ur idiot problem??? at 1st u steal my frenz, nvm, i dun blame u, 2nd u blame my frenz, okay, i juz 4get it, 3rd u do sth serectly behind my back, u think i dun noe??? excuse me, i'm not stupid... u may think i'm, tat'a ur problem... can u pls get a live... i dun understand all tis... i hate u, u, u & U... can all of u juz get a LIVE... u wan me 2 stay happy... but when i stay happy, u create all de problem 4 me... can u stop it... i dun blame u but de sight of u makes me hate u, i'm sorry but u r too much... can u juz get lost... i dun hate u but wad u do really makes me hate u so much... pls stop all ur nonsense... HIPPO CHIPO DESPO... which wan u wan??? juz get lost... becuz of u, i lost everything & thks 2 u i got so much illness & till now, i juz wan a simple life, pls get lost... i think u deserve tis... "i dun wan history 2 repeat itself"... ytd when i was packing my stuff, i saw all my sec sch greeting cards & presents... i miss all of them... hahas, in my life, i met all tis ppl tat has helps me in some ways... szepei, felicia, huimin, angela, jolyn, suetping, samantha, davina, joy, gayatri, yuenping, ignasia, cindy, liting, peisi, rebecca, jiajin, weiting, jean, malina, atiqa, rakbir, snadra, shannon, sylvia, belinda, thenmozhi, vemili, sherry, veronica, yashi, pileng, cecilia, lydia, regina, jamine, jolene, cynthia, amanda, yueying, karin, bel, bernice, melissa, faeezah, geraldine, huda, natasha, esther, nabila, huiqin, marcus, szehwee, huifang, angie, rachel, adon, fiona, yufang, serena, dewi, gwyn, karying, claire & so many more... dun noe why i miss them so much... sorry if i miss out ur name, cuz there's too many names... hahas...

now u understand de feeling of loving someone but de person dun love u???

i miss u, will u ever notice me??? i dun noe wad u r thinking??? haiya, but nvm... i'm still waiting... hopefully everything will be fine...

2008-08-28T06:54:00.000-07:00

Beela...
MY DEAREST FRENZ!!! :D
i'm going 2 tel u, no matter wad u do or how sad u feel, u haf 2 stay strong... life is like tis, wheather u like it or not, tis is how god creates ur life... god has de power... whoosh... i'm going mad... everyday i'm facing de same prob!!! when will tis end??? u ask me, is tis gonna happen 4 e rest of e dae tgt in tix sch??? i'm gonna tel u, no, u can prevent it if u do something abt it... "nth is impossible"... if we dare 2 try, there will always be a chance of hope... dun worry too much... i can say, too much things has happen 2 us recently, it's really too much but if we can still tolerate then juz continue 2 bear wif it... i noe tat de important person has given u alot of prob but dun worry, he won't eat u up... rmb my sentence???
"U CAN DISLIKE E PERSON BUT U CANT HATE DEM" alrite, everyone has their reason behind everything they do... i believe u haf ur reasons too... juz dun think too much... hahas... it has been a long time since i blog... so much haf happen, ppl change so fast??? everything changes now!!! beela, stay strong... can we go through everything tgt again like how we did it in de past... "time will really prove everything, believe me"... i dun understand... why can't ppl treasure de ppl around them??? why muz they wait till something happen then they will treasure de person back... isn't it silly??? i juz dun noe... i hope we can get all our link back again, omg, exams are near... i scare i might fail!!! i hope everything will get better... think of tis way beela, "tomorrow will be a better day"... so tat if u think tis way, u won't feel so sad... hahahas... miss u lots... muz take care of ur health alrite...

Secret Person
hahas... i believe tat love is hard and yes, it's very hard... "wad is not meant 2 be ur, will nv be ur's..." maybe u dun like me but nvm... i really can't do anything if u dun like me rite, but i can do sth... i can keep u in my heart sliently... it's terrible 2 love someone, seriously, loving someone is very hard... hmm, ur msg are so sweet... but i believe u won't msg me anymore & i believe tat maybe u r avoiding me... hehe... i can be rite & i can be wrong... so am i rite or wrong??? i'm sorry if i haf disturbed u... i dun noe why, i juz dun dare 2 tel u how i feel!!! i'm scare, i'm lost... i dun noe if u r avoiding me anot??? hais... omg!!! i'm stupid enough 2 fall in love... i can't see u everyday, i juz dun noe wad u r thinking??? nvm, i'll be waiting... yeah!!! hahas, i miss u so much... will u ever notice me??? i dun think so... lols, anyway juz take care... i will let nature take it course...

Hong Hong!!!
"i juz dun understand, did we owe u too much in de past??? did we??? why muz we deserve all tis from u... i believe it's really too late 2 say anything now??? but all i can say is to be careful in future... muz u really haf love in ur life then u will be peaceful??? pls, i believe in tis world there are so many other better things to do other then force urself 2 fall in love rite??? i hope u can think through??? is not hard to live on ur own, without love, u still can live ur life happily, believe me, u can, provided tat u try... i hope tat all de chances tat we gave u, u will treausre it... pls dun make ur life so miserable & let all of us haf peace can, let urself haf peace too can... i haf told u so many things... but u didn't seem 2 get my meaning... i juz hope u will wake up... "LOVE CAN'T BE FORCE"... really, sometimes de person we love, we will nv get... sorry, i noe it hurts u alot alot but really u can't force LOVE... understand??? pls pls pls wake up... think 4 ur future... study hard now, dun think abt love untill u really noe who u love... i still believe "time will prove everything"... hopefully u will get wad i mean, if by reading tis, u still can't get wad i mean, then i really dun noe wad i can do??? i wish u all de best in future & take care of urself... if u ever need my help in future, i will still help u... i will not 4get u... as i said, i will 4give u, no matter how bad u r, as long as u r willing 2 change, i dun mind giving u another chance... chance 2 be good frenz again & not more then tat... i believe everyone can be given chances in their life, no matter wad they did in de past, it doesn't matter... as long as they r willing 2 change, i will 4give them... so it's de same 4 u... no matter wad happen in de past, wad u do in de past, it doesn't matter, now de present matters... so i hope de next time we meet or talk, u haf already wake up... one last thing... i'm sorry... sorry!!!

2008-07-02T03:48:00.000-07:00

bye blog... take care...

2008-07-01T03:45:00.000-07:00

"LeT oUr lOve LaSt 4EvER" Ask me how many times my heart has been broken and I will ask you to look up to the sky and count the stars!!! our story begins on 5 Dec... will u end our story??? hope it won't end!!! let it stay tis way 4ever!!!

it's very late now... hais, i still miss de times... hais... nvm...

I've forgotten how long it has been since I've never again...
listened to you telling your beloved fairytale
I've thought for a long time
I start to panic have I done something wrong?
You said to me with full of tears
Inside the fairytale are all lies
I can't possibly be your prince
Maybe you can ever understand
You said I love you ever after
The stars in my sky has lightened up
I'm willing to be that angel you love inside the fairytale
Spread up my hands become the wings to protect you

You must believe believe that we can be like that in the fairytale prosperity and happiness is the ending

You said to me with full of tears
Inside the fairytale are all lies
I can't possibly be your prince
Maybe you can ever understand
You said I love you ever after
The stars in my sky has lightened up
I'm willing to be that angel you love inside the fairytale
Spread up my hands become the wings to protect you

You must believe believe that we can be like that in the fairytale prosperity and happiness is the ending

I want to be that angel you love inside the fairytale
Spread up my hands become the wings to protect you

You must believe believe that we can be like that in the fairytale prosperity and happiness is the ending

I will be that angel you love inside the fairytale
Spread up my hands become the wings to protect you

You must believe believe that we can be like that in the fairytale prosperity and happiness is the ending

Let's write our ending together

2008-06-23T04:28:00.000-07:00

it's 4:28AM now & i'm still not in bed??? was thinking, we used 2 talk & share prob till late everynite in de past but now it's different!!! if we could turn back de clock, it could be better... hais... i dun noe wad 2 say... juz wan 2 say u r once a important person in my life, since de day u appear, everyday was filled wif happiness... we haf been through all de good & bad times & juz hope things will get better in future... life is unfair, god will always test us so wadever test we took from god, we juz haf 2 pass de test & juz move on wif life... life is nv easy... ytd was talking 2 fang, she told me alot of things & ya, life is like tat so u juz haf 2 move on & be strong, she said!!! fang say since young i already dun haf a good life... but nvm... maybe in future there will be a better life 4 me... i believe god won't let a person live a life forever tat is miserable... de past few days, i really couldn't haf peace, u noe everyday i juz can't sleep... i really haf a prob... juz wan 2 sleep peacefully but can't??? everynite is like tat??? it's really enough!!! u seems 2 be very happy ytd, of course u will be happy but then i can't do anything??? i juz hope everything will be better... i had enough, i'm really tired!!! i dun deserve 2 live, i really hate life... i juz wan life 2 be better... thk 4 everything!!! 7months 23days??? everything change... juz hope u will be happy in future... i'm sad but still u haf 2 go, no matter wad all de best in ur future & take care... dun be stubborn, go rest more & when u can't breath, dun lie down... drink lots of plain water... get enough rest!!! hopefully there will be peace!!! it's really so hard 2 let go!!! i dun noe wad 2 do but juz felt so tired... juz couldn't sleep... it's de same prob everynite... i'm really tired... i juz got so much things 2 say but nvm... juz take care... thanks!!!

u???
i really dun noe wad 2 say, can we dun contact cuz there are alot of misunderstanding, i dun noe wad huiqin say but then u really pissed me when i juz dun wan 2 talk... there some thing which is very important, i noe if u dun stop contacting me, i will get into trouble & soon u will also get in trouble & idun wan de both of us 2 get into trouble u understand??? i dun noe how 2 tel u but i really hope tat we won't end up going eslewhere??? really if u wan, go and contact huiqin instead, dun keep contact me... somemore u everytime talk rubbish!!! i had enough!!! ok, shall end here, take care...

2008-06-22T01:55:00.000-07:00

ok, finally now my uncle is asleep, and here i'm blogging... i dun noe when i can use com again but i think i won't blog anymore... i will end everything, i'm juz so tired... why??? i only wan dear 2 come back, i also cannot contact dear & i'm very miserable... i juz wan 2 talk 2 her but i dun noe how??? i wan 2 leave everything... i will end all de prob by myself... i really hate it... i dun noe how, i really won't come back unless dear dun leave me... i dun noe can, if she can juz stay & we dun fight then everything will be alrite but i dun noe can... i though of juz 4get everything & dun talk abt our prob & juz help each other but tat time dear suddenly ask me sth in de bus & then from there slowly i start 2 think abt our prob & untill now we haf so much misunderstanding... tat time i told myself not 2 think abt our prob & juz treat everything as per normal but out of no where, she suddenly bring out tis subject & now i dun noe how??? i dun wish 2 live, i really cannot contact dear, i dun noe wad 2 do now??? i wan dear... Arrrrr... i will end everything already, i dun noe wad 2 do... i juz miss her so much... take care...

cousin, dun worry juz take care of urself... let me rest in peace... i won't blog anymore... juz take care... dun worry abt me, i'm a failure & i'm sorry 4 everything, dun tel them anything, i dun wan them 2 noe, u juz dun worry too much abt me k... i juz dun noe wad 2 do & i'm going crazy...

Tell me where the rainbow is
Could you still give me back my wish
Why is the sky so silent?
All of the clouds are running to me
Is there a mask for me?
Recalling too much of the past words can accomplish nothing
Perhaps time is a kind of antidote
And also the first poison I'm taking now
I could not see your smile, how can I sleep well
Your silhouette is so close to me, yet I cannot embrace it
Without earth, the sun can still circle around
Without reasons, I also can walk alone
You want to go away, I know that is very easy
You said dependence is our obstacle
Even if we break up, but couldn't you not receive my love
Assuming I'm the last to understand

fang, i dun noe how??? thk 4 de words... perhaps i will listen 2 u... i need a break... i hope tat u will be fine after all!!! tis few days there seem 2 be alot of quarreling... u should noe, it's very tiring 2 quarrel everyday, in fact ytd also we quarrel!!! ENOUGH!!! let's take a break & i hope tis break could helps... i dun noe wad 2 say, if u dun care then dun bother, juz call me & u say wadever la??? u think it's funny!!! i was angry, but then i did not fight wif u, cuz u r de 1 who has attitude prob, not me... i juz wan 2 haf peace, i've been having nightmare since de day we quarrel till now... how many days already??? i hope when i leave now, i will be able 2 sleep in peace 4 tis few days... dun contact me??? leave me alone!!! i juz dun wan 2 talk 2 anyone now!!! PEACE!!! dun worry, u r busy, yes, i noe u r... everytime i called u, u will say u r busy, fine, busy then busy... let us cool down cuz i noe if we continue 2 talk, we will fight & i dun wan tis 2 happen, i'm really having headach, i need a break!!! i hope tis few days when i'm not around, we can haf some peace... there's alot of prob, which u won't noe!!! so juz leave it... i ask myself tis question & i wan 2 find de ans but i can't... i ask if we were 2 end "everything" will u still care 4 me??? my ans 4 NOW is i think no!!! cuz nowadays we haven end "everything" & de way u talk 2 me is very hurting!!! ya... we do get hurt but if everyday i'm getting hurt, can i live in peace, NO!!! then take ytd 4 example, de way u react, i was very angry then when i went home, i ask myself why muz u react tis way??? but i believe u... juz take care of ur toes... so i choose 2 leave now... i think it could be a good time 4 us 2 go & think through wad we really wan!!! so dun contact me... hopefully after we haf think through then we shall talk again!!! TAKE TIS TIME 2 THINK THROUGH & GIVE OURSELF SOME PEACE!!! i agree, peace seldom come... so now we shall create peace for ourself, tis way things will be better 4 de both of us...

fang: ru guo wo zuo chuo le jue ding... na jue rang wo chen dan yi qie... wo mei yi zhi dou you wen ti, dan, ni mei zhi dou zai bang wo... wo hen gan xie ni... ke shi zhe yi chi, wo pai wo hui zuo chuo yi ge jue ding, wo pu yao hou hui, ni zhi dao wo zai jiang zhen mei... dui pu qi!!! sorry!!! take care!!! fang, thk 4 de words... thk 4 de advise... i guess i really need a break, i'm really miserable, i juz wan 2 leave everything 4 a while... so dun worry, i will make sure i find back myself... u dun worry, take care alrite!!! see ya soon!!!

huda, dun feel guilty... no matter wad happens, i won't blame u... cheer up & dun be sad... i told u tat it is unfair... so juz leave it!!! sorry huda, i will not call u but after when i'm ready 2 talk then i will call u... i think 4 now, u should not think too much... take care & be happy... dun worry too much & think too much... huda, thk 4 everything... i miss u & thk 4 helping me all tis while, i dun noe wad 2 say but i juz miss u so much... take care k...

sha, i dun noe wad 2 say, i miss de time i spend wif u, i still can rmb tat time when we went airport tgt, u juz make my day... thk sha... thk 4 ur help when i neede u... i noe i'm not a good frenz but still thk 4 being there wif me always... u noe de reason tat make me feel so lost is i juz can't find myself back, i'm having so much confusion & i dun noe wad 2 do... thk 4 talking 2 me... hais, mummy, no matter wad i will still love u... i miss u so much, muz take care of urself... i'm so tired...

nabila, ya, i agree wif u... but then i dun noe wad 2 do... thk 4 de msg... i miss all de times when we share our prob... u noe u reminds me of sth... u told me... no no, cannot... somemore we are so close later "F" WILL THINK OTHER WAY ROUND... ya, so juz be ourself... nabila, sorry... thk 4 accompanying me all de times & thk 4 being there wif me everytime... nabila, dun think too much already... i miss u, hope i can hear ur voice & see u again... take care k...

jean, i miss u... i dun noe wad happen... maybe we dun haf prob but then i dun noe... i really hope everything will be back 2 normal... i juz miss those times when we haf so much fun... hope we can be like in de past again, but now i dun think can... jean, i'm sorry if i make u angry or wad but i did not fail 2 think of u... i really miss u alot & i ask peisi alot of things abt u... i hope we can still be close again... i think now i won't be able 2 do tat... i really wan 2 leave everything... i'm sorry jean... pls take care of urself... sorry & thk 4 being there for me all those while... take care...

liting, hey, miss u like hell... hmm, tat time i nv call u back... sorry, was busy... hope jean, u & me can be close again... hais... liting... so much has happen... i dun noe wad 2 do... i miss u so much... i really dun noe wad 2 do, everybody haf their own life now... we can't meet up so often... u dun work so much k... take care...

i dun wan 2 go on anymore but i juz wan 2 tel huda, sha, nabila, fiona, fang, peisi, bear, liting, jean & u tat i juz miss u guys alot... thk 4 being there 4 me always... i'm always having prob??? hais... i juz hate everything... i think tis will be my last post already... pls take care of urself k... i'm sorry 2 give u guys so much prob... anyway i won't 4get all de times we spend tgt... take care everyone!!!

huiqin, take care of urself, dun worry abt de person who fake as u, juz 4get abt it... sorry k...

2008-06-18T01:27:00.000-07:00

temporary blog closed!!!

i will leave now, take tis time 2 cool ourself down & let us haf peace for a few days, hopefully tis few days i will sleep in peace!!! dun contact me... take care... bye!!!

2008-06-17T20:54:00.000-07:00

went out alone at 8am 2day in de morning!!! i went orchard, then i met a girl outside Orchard MRT station & she was crying... so i walk 2wards her & gave her a packet of tissue!!! then she say thank you!!! i say welcome then she say excuse me, can u talk 2 me 4 a while!!! so i say ok... then we walk & walk & walk and we walk untill somewhere which is very quiet, so we sat there & we had a talk... she ask me, wad is ur name??? i tel her lijun... then i ask her wad is her name, she tel me jesslyn!!! so i say wad u wan me 2 talk abt??? then she say, i'm very depressed, i juz wan 2 talk 2 someone but i dun noe who 2 approach & i hope u can listen 2 me... then i say ok, sure, i will lend u my 2 listening ears... then she say 2 me, my boyfrenz ask me for break juz now & i'm very sad, we have been tgt for 4months & 19days... then juz now i ask him why he wan 2 break wif me & he say 2 me tat he like someone esle... then after she say tis 2 me, it reminds me of de times when me & dear are tgt!!! but nvm... so i ask her, do u really love him & r u sure u wan him 2 married u??? she say 2 me, yes, i love him alot & i hope i can be wif him forever!!! then i say but he like someone esle!!! then she say i'm very sad, i dun noe why he suddenly like another person!!! then i say 2 her, love can't be control!!! then i told her dun cry & i put a tissue on her hand... then she say thanks... i was very confuse too... i tel myself, u r lucky tat u got someone 2 talk too, but me??? then i tel her if u really love him then u try 2 get him back... then she ask me haf u been in love be4??? i say no & i juz feel so sad... then she say, dun fall in love, is so hard... then i say in my heart ya, love hurts alot!!! then after tat i say i hope u & ur boyfrenz can be tgt again but now u haf 2 think 4 urself wad u wan 2 do!!! so she say thank u very much, u r a good person & i believe tat u will haf a good guy in future... then i say oh ok!!! cheer up alrite!!! then she say thanks, i feel so much better after talking 2 u... then i say ok, wadever happens in future, think properly & make a good decision for urself!!! then she say ok... so we went 2 walk walk a while then i went shopping alone again!!! then i spend de whole day talking 2 myself & i keep look at de things around me... then i dun noe why, i'm juz very confuse wif myself!!! i dun deserve 2 be love!!! wad for even if i'm handsome!!! look doesn't matter, but heart matters alot, to me!!!

thk sha (mummy) i miss u & i'm sorry 4 all de things tat i haf done!!!

thk huda (nenek) i miss u too & i'm also sorry 4 all de wrong things tat i haf done!!!

nabila, fiona, huifang!!! i miss u guys too... i wan 2 say thk & sorry... i noe tat i'm a bad person, i dun noe wad 2 do!!! i'm really sorry & thk 4 all de things tat u guys haf done 4 me... i really appriciate it!!! pls forgive me!!!

i haf been thinking, i dun wan 2 rush my brain, i'm going 2 break down soon... i guess i really really really need alot of time... pls dun rush me!!! i'm thinking everyday & my brain is cracking...

on sat i fainted & tat day, i haf learn my lesson... i really dun noe how much time i haf cuz de doctor already say i always nelgect my health & now he say once i really fall sick i muz really see a doctor & eat my medicine if not even god also cannot save me!!! i'm really scare... when i fainted, my whole mind was full wif dear & i was really afraid tat i can't see & talk 2 dear again!!! i dun wish tat 2 happen!!! i juz wan 2 spend de times i haf now 2 do things tat i like & wan!!! i really had nightmare, i had enough!!! i juz wan 2 sleep peacefully every nite but i juz can't... there's so many prob bothering me & nobody will noe!!! i need 2 rest now, my heart pains often now & i juz wan 2 say sorry!!! take care ppl!!!

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2008-05-28T15:48:00.000-07:00

i miss u so much & i juz dun noe how??? i'm very stress!!! my exam's are coming... tis week i haf been busy studying untill we dun really haf much time 2 talk... but then when i call u, u r sleeping, i juz dun wan 2 talk 2 u when u wan 2 sleep cuz i noe tat when u wan 2 sleep, u won't noe wad u will be talking and u will keep mumble 2 urself... do u noe tat sometimes even 1 call from u can helps me alot??? hais... i'm tired... hmm, hopefully after exam we can haf a good talk!!! tis week alot of things has happen... then becuz of "S" thing, we quarrel!!! i really dun noe wad 2 do, but end up we talk things out already but now i dun wan 2 get paranoid for nth... i hope i can endure untill my exams end then we talk all de things out... hopefully can, i hope so!!! i dun noe wad 2 do now!!! 5 more days 2 exams, i will be busy studying tis week, hope tat everyone can pass their exams... jiayous!!! take care...

2008-05-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

Dear, when will u realise my love for u??? u juz mean so much 2 me!!! wad can i do??? i hate de way u react nowadyas, it hurts me alot... sometimes de words u say may hurt ppl but u won't noe!!! i juz hope u r not serious when u say all those words cuz sometimes de words u say, even if u dun mean it but ur expression could tel others tat u r serious!!! i love u so much and if i dun ask u, i won't get to noe de ans & i will think of crazy stuff!!! i miss u!!! hais... i hope nth will happen!!! hais, i got alot of things 2 say 2 u, but how??? teach me!!! i dun noe how 2 start!!!

there's so many probs going on nowadays... wad happen??? will all our frenzship be gone??? peisi - u r cute!!! hais... i'm waiting 4 all de probs 2 be solve!!! i hate having probs..

2008-05-04T11:20:00.000-07:00

Baby carrot has gone!!! now left wif Baby mushroom!!! lalala... hais, i miss u, my dearest!!! i'm still thinking of u, although i'm happy but deep inside my heart i'm still missing u like hell!!! oh gosh... i'm gonna be happy cuz i dun wan u 2 be unhappy & i dun wan u 2 worry abt me!!! i'm wrong u noe my dearest, i though maybe by keeping myself busy i could forget u but hopefully it didn't... u r still in my mind all de times & i juz keep quiet all tis while... but now i feel tat i'm missing u like hell so i'm gonna tel u how badly i miss u!!! Dearest, I Miss U!!! hopefully u r resting in peace now!!! enjoy urself in ur world & be happy!!! take care!!!

Boo!!! 2 all my frenz... those who r sad, pls cheer up alrite!!! mummy, take good care of ur health and drink lots of plain water!!! nabila, forgetting is a very hard thing!!! maybe if u really lose de trust in him then dun help him anymore if not u will end up hurting urself, u noe??? since u noe tat now he is making use of u and we could feel it for u too then stop now before it's too late, think abt it, is it worth it??? i could help u if only u dun be so soft 2wards him!!! take care everyone!!! stay happy!!! i hope everyone will haf a better day and clear all de troubles in de world!!! let's work tgt and be happy!!! yeah!!! we gonna play pool soon!!! i think playing pool could help us 2 distress abit!!! so let's play happily next week k!!!

Dear, 2day is a special day... hahas... i will lock my heart 4 u and only u, nobody could unlock it alrite!!! i could feel ur love, but do u, i hope u do??? go drink lots of plain water, see la, now sick already!!! muz take good care of urself k!!! dear, i love u!!! take care... Muacks...

2008-04-29T16:24:00.000-07:00

ok, i wan 2 say sorry 2 these ppl!!! i'm sorry huda, natasha, esther & nabila, pls 4give me!!!

mo mo ren- xie xie ni mei yi chi dou zai wo shen pang, ke neng wo zhen de mei you ze ge neng li qu mian du ta!!! wo zhen de hen nan guo, wo bu xiang zai huo xia qu le.. wo zhen de wu fa fang xia quan bu de wen ti!!! wo cheng ren ke neng shi wo xiang tai duo, ke shi wo bu neng bu xiang ying wei ta hui zhi qi lai dao wo tou nao li mian!!! xie xie ni yi chi yi lai de bang zhu, ru guo you yi tian wo zhen de li kai, ni yi ting yao bang wo hao hao di zhao gu zhe ta, wo pai wo mei you ze ke neng li, mo mo ren, dai ying wo ni yao hao hao zhao gu zhe ta worrhs!!! xie xie ni!!!

2008-04-28T14:21:00.000-07:00

hey blog, i'm temporary back!!!

thk Ali, roslyn, nabila, fiona, dewi, sabrina & de rest 4 ur help!!!

OSA lesson was very fun for me, cuz 2day i really can concerntrate well and i type faster!!! theres's some misunderstanding between 2 of my frenz... i dun wish 2 mention their names... i juz hope they will be alrite!!!

cheer up karying!!!

Dear, i miss u alot, i really couldn't sleep well, i dreamt of de dream again ytd, i'm having nightmare... i dun noe wad's wrong, maybe i'm thinking too much!!! hais, i juz love u so much & at de same times i'm very confuse wif myself!!! i really dun noe... my best buddy told me i'm very selfish!!! am i??? i did not give u happiness and i'm very upset, i hate myself 4 not letting u live peacefully!!! i dun noe how!!! i'm so selfish as to keep u!!! but if 1 day u really haf 2 leave me, i can't imagine how my life is going to be like!!! i'm sorry dear, i'm very selfish, yes i'm!!! sorry 2 bother u so much!!! i hope now everything won't change, let it remain de same!!!

2008-04-23T16:29:00.000-07:00

2day went 2 cafe 1 then run 2 cafe 2 then run 2 cafe 1 again wif, nabila, roselyn, sabrina & me!!! omg, we run like a mad bull!!! eee... we r crazy becuz of sth!!! hmm, omg... shall not say anymore... juz take care!!!

thk nabila, huda, nat, fiona, dewi, roselyn, sabrina, serena, seehian & karying 4 being there 4 me always...

lastly i wan to thk Mr goh 4 helping me... thank you!!!

2008-04-17T19:02:00.000-07:00

15 April 2008!!! min yee passed away at 12:10pm (my dearest cousin)

i will always rmb tis day!!! rmb u leave me on tis day and i will not get 2 see u again!!! my life will not be de same again, everyone seem 2 be leaving me!!! i'm sad!!! my life is miserable... u r gone & i can nv haf u back!!! thk 4 keeping de secret 4 me 4 so long & thk 4 helping me so much!!! now tat u r gone, who am i going 2 share my probs wif??? who is going 2 help me plan outing again!!! i'm going 2 plan wif her??? i dun think i can!!! we will only end up fighting... Min Yee, i love u so much & i hope u will leave in peace!!! i'm so sorry i scolded u ytd when u r gone!!! but really u left me all de responsibility & how can u leave me so suddenly??? u won't noe how i feel, if i haf a chance, i wan u back!!! u say i'm ur dearest & let me tel u, u r always my dearest too!!! i miss u alot... i'm really very sad!!! i cried so much and i saw ur tears ytd, i'm sorry i drops all my tears on u!!! i noe u did not leave in peace cuz ytd i saw ur tears drop down and i was very upsets can!!! i dun even noe if u haf any last wish or wad??? i wish i can help u fulfilled ur dreams!!! dearest, thk 4 de gift, i will rmb de "secret game"... thk 4 de mushroom!!! thk 4 all de support tat u haf given me all along & i hope u will be happy where ever u go!!! take care... i love u!!!

dear, u r leaving me too??? why??? hais... see, everyone is going 2 leave me, i won't be happy!!! thk 4 coming back!!! i juz can't 4 de reason 4 me 2 live & de only reason is U!!! i need u in my life and i can't afford 2 lose u, i really love u and i miss u!!!

hey, i dun haf depression alrite, i'm fine!!! i'm totally crazy last week... i haf gone mad and i haf lost my mind!!! but now i will be alrite cuz i haf u back & becuz of u, tis is de reason!!! thk god i haf u back!!!

my dear frenz, i'm very upsets, i dun noe if u r still angry wif me, i really hope u can talk 2 me again!!! i miss u so much and i dun think u noe!!! i juz hope we can be like de past again!!!

i'm very stress, i dun noe how!!! i'm still very confuse & very lost!!! hmm, i hope nobody will leave me again!!! dear, i love u, take care k!!!

2008-04-14T12:26:00.000-07:00

hmm, sch start 2day!!! i really got no mood tis few weeks... i can't even eat can, i noe i'm hungry but i juz haf no mood 2 eat!!! it's terrible... hais... thk god i found u, will u leave me again??? i hope u won't!!! u noe wad u r doing??? cuz i dun noe wad i'm doing... Dear, i really love u alot and i can't afford 2 lose u!!! tis whole morning i feel tat u r like avoiding me can??? i dun noe, only u noe wad nu r doing!!! i really dun noe wad 2 do, i'm confuse... i nv break my promise k, i think and think and think i scare u will break ur promise!!! i'm really lost... i hate when u scold or shout at me!!! i dun noe le, Dear, i really love u, u won't noe how much i love u alrite, cuz u r not in my shoes... dun leave me again can??? hais, i'm scare and i really got no mood to do things... Beela, huda, sha, esther, karying, fiona!!! thk 4 ur concern and care... i will be alrite, dun worry!!! i will blog again if i haf de chance!!! TAKE CARE... GOODBYE!!!

2008-04-09T11:50:00.000-07:00

haf not been posting cuz of my com!!! hais, i'm living in agony!!! i'm so sad wif a whole lots of things!!! i wonder, i wonder and i wonder... if not 4 u, i couldn't be who i'm!!! i juz dun noe wad 2 do, i'm so depressed!!! 2days ago, i went east coast wif nabila, karying, esther, sha & nat!!! Arrr... i'm so stupid , i feel... nothing gonna change my mind... i'm in a lost and confuse state... dear, i dun noe wad 2 do!!! i told u it's u who make me realise how important and how beautiful life is but now i'm not going to treasure my life cuz i really got no mood 4 anything now!!! becuz of u, i feel tat life is meaningful but now??? i really dun noe if i should carry on living or not cuz i really can't find de reason why i should continue to live??? i really dun noe wad to do!!! it's u who make me realise alot of things and becuz of u i haf learn alot of things from u and i get happy everyday when i was wif u, but now really i'm not going to be happy anymore!!! i wanna thk these ppl 4 being there 4 me always and always there to stop me from doing stupid things... without my frenz, i think by now i will be in either heaven or hell!!! i wanna thk god 4 giving me so many good frenz... if esther did not tel u abt my prob, i think u will not talk 2 me rite!!! i noe esther 4 abt 9 years and she noe all my prob and she always console me... i really wan 2 thk her, she really help me alot... maybe she shouldn't haf tel u abt my prob!!! promise??? i really dun noe!!! i only wan u back in my life if i can!!! i dun wan 2 leave u... i really hate myself and i hate everything!!! dear, i really hope i can turn back de clock!!! u noe when i was wif u, i will nv ever think of ending my life and i will spend every min doing all de things happily but now if u were 2 leave me, i tel u i will end my life rite away cuz i really got no meaning in my life... wad's de point of living when i can't find de meaning 4 me to live??? i got no power 2 go on now... i'm very sad, depressed, lost and very confuse!!! i dun noe, dear, i trust u alot and de love from u is different, u get wad i mean rite!!! hais, i dun noe... if i die 1 day, i hope u guys will attend my funeral and pls dun get angry wif me!!! maybe tis will be my last post!!! i hope u can be mine again!!! hmm, i wan 2 say sth... "treasure de 1 u love be4 u lose them k"!!!

i wan 2 say "thank you" 2 all my frenz mention below... thk 4 being there 4 me always and thk for being so patient wif me... i noe i always give u guys prob, maybe i'm not a "good frenz" but still thk for helping me!!! without u guys, i won't be who i'm 2day!!! all de letters and all de gift meant alot to me!!! i wan 2 say thk u once again and i miss all of u!!! anyway take care alrite!!!

jolene, yueying, cynthia, cecilia, bel, amanda, melissa, bernice, lydia, regina, jamine, lynette, iryani, huifang, szehwee...

peisi, bear, felicia, suetping, angela, yashi, jean, liting, shannon, jiajin, weiting, huimin, szepei...

huda, nabila, esther, sha, nat...

angie, iris, penny, grace, rachel, sareen...

To u...
i hope u will talk 2 me... i try, i try and i try 2 talk 2 u alot of times but i juz couldn't get a reply from u!!! is there a misunderstanding between us??? can u pls tel me de reason y u r angry wif me or de reason y u avoid me??? i wish i can read ur mind, i juz dun wan 2 lose a frenz like u!!! i still can rmb all de times i spend wif u!!! going 2 ur house 2 fetch u then go 2 sch tgt, coming my house 2 play, spending times tgt in sch, sending u home when there's rain and holding an umbrella 4 u!!! i really miss u alot, i hope u can talk 2 me again!!! FORGIVE ME, WILL U!!! i'm sorry if i haf done any wrong things but i really dun wan 2 lose u, i miss de times we talk on de phone tgt!!! i miss u and i miss every moments i spend wif u, maybe u will forget but i will not forget... pls talk 2 me can!!! i dun noe if i should mention ur name, but i hope u will noe how much u mean 2 me!!! our frenzship is important and i dun wan 2 lose it juz becuz of sth!!! i hope u noe who i'm refering to!!! i hope to see u again and i hope we can talk tgt again and share prob like how we used to be in de past... anyway take care...

2008-04-02T21:52:00.000-07:00

went 2 meet sha then after tat went 2 meet huda then haf a talk tgt!!! then after tat wait 4 her then we went 2 play pool tgt wif sha & esther... had alot of fun 2day... after tat went back to CP, eat there then cab down 2 serangoon 2 meet my family...

2008-04-01T21:33:00.000-07:00

yeah!!! 2day is April fool, but dun anyhow make fun of ur frenz cuz some ppl die becuz of de april fool jokes... hmm, we get into 800meters run!!! hais... tiring!!! erm, after training went 2 sjc 2 collect my testi then went 2 collect food wif her then went 2 cp 4 lunch & went 2 play soccer again!!! lalala... erm, after tat i went 2 meet my family 4 dinner!!!

2008-03-31T20:46:00.000-07:00

2day went 2 meet her but she is late 4 1hour!!! hmm, went 2 find her then walk 2 CP 2 eat our lunch, then sha, esther and huda join us too!!! then went 2 meet their frenz, went 2 skss, saw my cousin... hahas... then had a fast talk and went off 2 hougang mall... then i donated $2 man!!! hahas... hmm, after tat went 2 greet peisi mum!!! hahas... then went to CP again!!! then went 2 play soccer!!! yeah!!! 2day de match was fun!!! but still i'm unhappy at certain times but nvm... i dun blame her, cuz it's her interest and she is so into it of course she wan 2 be perfect rite??? hais... i'm having cramps... tml got training again, so tiring!!!

2008-03-30T20:42:00.000-07:00

went 2 hospital early in de morning at 5am... finally my aunt is awake!!! hmm, afternoon went 2 find my grandma cuz she is very sick!!! hais... juz pray she will get well soon!!! then went 2 meet her, play soccer wif pervin again!!! hahas... then went home!!! hmm, so hungry my mum is not at home, got no food!!! yeah!!! i can skip my dinner again!!! lols...

2008-03-29T21:02:00.000-07:00

hmm, thk frenz... thk 4 de love... yeah, i hope i can be happy... hey, dun worry abt me alrite!!! i'm a strong girl... i hope u can also find ur happiness soon!!! all de best k!!!

Dear, LIJUN

i have think through, i'm very sad but i'm going to let u go, i know it's hard for me but i will try to let u go!!! i keep thinking of de time when we r in pri sch!!! i can still rmb everytime after sch, u, qin and me we will go shopping and we will go park and play tgt!!! rmb tat fish??? i think tat time was very fun... i miss de time we go out tgt had fun and u really make qin & me very happy... but now i juz hope tat de person u love can treasure u well, take care of u, protect u and love u wholeheartedly!!!!!! i hope he won't hurt ur heart!!! lijun, sorry i can't be wif u but i wan 2 see u happy!!! i really hope tat de person u love can treasure ur love... if next time u got any prob u can msg me or call me k... let me tel u, whoever can get u, he will be de lucky person in de world... i will now give u & him my blessing, wish u all de best... take care and stay happy!!! before i end i got a msg 2 say 2 de person u love!!! pls tel him wad i say 2 u k!!!

To: lijun lover...

i hope u can take care of her, protect her, love her and dun play wif her feelings!!! i can tel u tat she is a very soft-hearted girl and she will cry when she is unhappy, she also love romantic person and she loves to go romantic places!!! i hope u will make her happy, bring her go romantic place and treat her well... i can't protect her anymore, pls take care of her and i can't love her already so i really hope tat u can help me 2 take care of her and protect her k!!! she is really a very nice girl, she won't anyhow scold ppl, she will help ppl, she is very patient and she won't get angry easily, but when u make her angry she can really go crazy... see, she is like so nice to me but to u i dun noe wad u will think but i juz hope u can be wif her 4ever!!! treasure her love cuz she won't love any guys easily... pls take care of her... thk!!!

2008-03-29T09:20:00.000-07:00

hmm, so boring... trying 2 update some photo!!! hahahas... it's so funny!!! hmm, so tired!!!

*The rules of Love*
Kiss on the lips = I Love You
Kiss on the ear = you are special
Kiss on the nose = laughter
Kiss on cheek = friendship
Kiss on the forehead = I comfort u
Kiss on the neck = I want you
Kiss on the shoulder = you are wonderful
Kiss anywhere else = be careful
Play around with hair = can’t live without you
Hidding hands = happiness
Arms around waist = you are mine, I need you
A hug = I care
Nibble on ear = start warming
Smiling at each other = I like you
Lifting up eyebrows / winks = flirtation
Looking around = hiding true feelings
tender Kiss on the side of your lips = you’re mine
Wetting your lips = waiting 4 a kiss
Teardrop = I’m losing you
Crying = I lost you

2008-03-28T21:00:00.000-07:00

hmm, went out 2day, went 2 find sha then after tat had so much fun!!! hmm, very tiring!!!

2008-03-27T20:40:00.000-07:00

went 4 training 2day, we had 2 run alot of rounds as we can in 30min!!! omg, it's so tiring!!! after training went 2 cp 2 eat wif her!!! then went to her house, edit my project and then we went to play soccer... it was raining half-way through and it was fun cuz we keep playing match!!! hahahas... hahas we keep running in de rain!!! yeah!!! u r mine once again!!! lols... hmm... ok, shall end here!!! take care everyone!!!

2008-03-25T21:44:00.000-07:00

went 4 training 2day... hmm, we run 11rounds!!! so tired!!! hais... really muz train our stamina!!! hmm... went 2 play again but go no energy!!! my legs are having cramp now!!! ouch!!! all my muscle pain... hais, i haf got nth more 2 say already... i hate my life, i hate everything...

hey, leave me can!!! i tel u already, i'm not worth ur love... dun give me ur love cuz i'm juz a person who doesn't deserve ur love so pls give ur love 2 someone better and give it to de person tat will appreciate ur love k... thk 4 giving me ur love, i appreciate it alot but i'm very sorry 2 tel u tat i juz can't accept it!!! pls dun force me... i dun like going through a relationship tat r being forced, there's no point if we force each other!!! think abt it wheather i'm worth ur love anot??? cuz to me i think i dun wan u 2 wait cuz i think u haf waited enough 4 me already, i dun wan u 2 waste ur time on me... maybe u can go for qin!!! i wish u & her can be tgt!!! i'm really sorry!!! i'm stress up!!! dun force me can... AND LET ME TEL U AGAIN, I DID NOT BLOCK U IN MSN K!!! can u pls stop calling my house!!! i dun wan my family 2 noe abt tis prob and pls dun make tis prob big!!! i noe u can't accept, but pls respect my decision can??? i juz dun wan 2 get into relationship 4 now!!! i'm tired, stress, confuse & scare!!! pls dun add on 2 my stress!!! I HAD ENOUGH!!! i'm sorry!!! hmm, if u love me, pls respect my decision... thk!!! lastly, sorry 4 hurting u!!!

2008-03-24T21:41:00.000-07:00

went jogging at pp 2day!!! after tat we end up playing swing!!! then went to coffee shop and chat 4 a while!!! then went 2 CP... bought cake 4 peisi and Happy birthday peisi... hope ur wish & dream will come true!!! then after tat went 2 play soccer!!! yeah!!! fun fun... i'm really stress!!! hais... i dun noe!!! i'm confuse and stress!!! i'm so stress wif, her, my family, my project, my assignment, my aunt, myself and him!!! so many things la!!! my brain is not working!!! i'm sorry!!! how i wish u can lend me ur shoulder to lend on again!!! hais... i got no mood 4 everything!!!

To u...
i juz dun haf de feelings 4 u!!! i'm sorry i dun wan 2 hurt u!!! pls dun waste ur time on me!!! i believe tat there are much more ppl tat are much more prettier and so much better then me in tis world!!! i'm telling u again, i'm not pretty!!! i tel u sth, "if u love someone, doesn't mean u muz haf him/her... as long as u see him/her happy can le!!! i'm not worth ur love k, seriously i hope u can find someone better then me!!! i'm sorry!!! i'm not ready 4 any relationship yet and let me tell u, i did not block u in MSN!!! so ya!!! i believe it will be better if we remains as frenz!!! i'm sorry if i haf hurt u!!! it's my fault!!! blame me if u wan!!! i'm really sorry!!! i noe tat i'm bad, if u wan to hate me, pls go ahead cuz tis is de fact and i noe i really hurt u!!! sorry, i dun wan tis 2 happen but i really can't accept ur love!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!! SORRY!!!

2008-03-23T20:55:00.000-07:00

erm, wake up early 2day!!! i was sick ytd, keep coughing de whole nite, dun noe why... ytd my dad & i did not go 2 de hospital... lucky, cuz we both are sick and somemore we got not enough time 2 sleep then we become so sick!! then chat wif them ytd!!! hmm, juz hope we can faster settle de prob!!! thk mummy, i'm feeling better le!!! dun worry!!! i will take care of myself de... u too muz take care alrite!!! lols... take care everyone!!! got to go & do my stuff le... take care!!! i'm going to play soccer wif my sis!!! yeah!!! so tired... keep coughing, my throat really got prob!!!

i'm so troublesome!!! i'm very stress up by all de things now!!! somemore i keep thinking of u!!! i dun noe wad makes u do tis 2 me & peisi??? i really dun understand!!! i did not do anything wrong k!!! y muz u do tis 2 me??? u go and think abt it k, i dun wan to say much... i'm very stress now, i need peace!!! i dun noe... i hate myself!!! i wan 2 finish all de project fast but i juz can't, there's so many probs!!! maybe i give myself too much pressure but i really wan to finish all my project early and fast!!! hais... i really dun noe!!! somemore my brain is corrupted wif ur probs... everything is stressing me!!! i'm really stress, if u dun believe u can go and ask beela and u will noe how stress we are!!! hais... beela!!! i need ur help!!! Arrrrrrrrrrr... i really can't think le!!! my brain is like full wif probs now, wad's wrong!!! i really need peace!!!

2008-03-22T08:44:00.000-07:00

lalala, went 2 meet mummy 2day, went 2 airport!!! hahas... hmm, we talk alot 2day!!! i got alot of things 2 do now!!! thk mummy 4 ur help!!! thk 4 de food too!!! hahas... i really haf so much fun 2day!!! thk 4 making my day!!! lols... i'm going 2 start all my plan le!!! hope everything will go on smoothly!!! hmm, i wish, i wish & i wish i can touch de sky now!!! Arrrrrr... i'm so short!!! hahas... i'm so happy tat i'm short!!! omg, i'm crazy le!!! mummy, thk 4 ur help, seriously i'm very touched!!! i keep thinking abt de 1st time when we get closed, tat moment was so touched & somemore it was raining!!! hahas... thk mummy!!!

2008-03-21T17:17:00.000-07:00

ytd went 2 de hospital wif my dad again... hmm, went there till morning... then came back tis morning, went 2 bathed, and we went to de market and went 2 shop 4 a while!!! hais, i'm very tired... went to take a nap, can't really sleep cuz of all those noise from my silblings!!! SO INCONSIDERATE!!! i hate it man!!! i feel very weak now, juz now i wanted 2 faint!!! but i nv, i only took a nap and i end up lying on my bed... i'm really very tired!!! i wish i could juz faint and nv wake up!!! i dun wan 2 wake up can, de moment i wake up, i can see many things and i will start 2 think of all my prob!!! hais... i dun care la... i'm super tired!!! i'm having flu also... i've got no mood!!!

2008-03-19T18:28:00.000-07:00

i'm glad 2 noe tat u r fine, juz be who u r k!!! no matter how much u change ur name will still be de same and tis doesn't make any different... i believe u and pls dun get so worked up, if u got any prob u can always msg or call me k, i will surely help u!!! tis week, everyday i will be visiting my aunt till late morning, i seriously did not get 2 sleep well, 4 de whole week i only sleep less then 6hours and i'm really tired!!! i hope she will wake up soon!!! tis week we haf test everyday, it's stress, untill i even bring my notes wif me to the hospital 2 study k!!! hmm, i noe i will fail all my test cuz i noe tat i did not concerntrate and i keep thingking abt alot of things... i'm really stress up!!! nabila, 4get abt....... maybe " " is not meant for u, like me, maybe wad is not meant for us, we can't take it... look 4 another better wan k!!! cheer up!!! dun think too much... anything we can help each other k!!! u r creative & i'm imaginary!!! we both can help each other out wif wad we haf k!!! we can really read each other mind!!!

tis faisal is very funny, he took our photos!!! lols...

faisal = angry

karying = happy

jun = emo

nabila = cheerful

2008-03-12T21:13:00.000-07:00

i'm very sad can!!! everything come and go so suddenly!!! my aunt is in de hospital now!!! i wish i can be by her side, i miss her... although she is bad, but i still wan her 2 recover soon!!! i miss her scolding, i wan her back!!! pls wake up, will u!!! i need u back in my life... we all need u... pls wake up... i beg u!!! i really wan u back!!! sorry i can't go 2 de hospital & visit u!!! i hope uncle & aunt will go & visit u often!!! pls wake up 4 my sake!!! pls... i dun wan 2 lose anything or anyone!!! i juz got hurt badly... i dun wan 2 lose u and get hurt again!!! so pls wake up, will u??? uzmy loves one hurt me badly tis few days??? pls dun leave me!!! pls dun give up ur life!!! muz wake up!!! i dun noe wad 2 do!!! everything happen too suddenly!!! i can't take it!!! :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :

2008-03-12T15:15:00.000-07:00

u r not there 2 listen 2 my story anymore!!! wad happen??? u did not even talk 2 me when we r taking de bus... u dun care abt me anymore!!! i dun noe wad's wrong!!! i wan 2 turn back de clock, when de time we r juz frenz... when i used 2 call u everyday, talk 2 u untill in de middle of de nite, u r still there 2 listen 2 my story!!! i wan 2 share my prob wif u once again, but i dun noe when then we can be like tat time!!! i miss all tat nite!!! i rmb all ur advise & becuz of u i become a better person, but now without u... my life really changes... i dun noe wad will become of me... i lose everything and all de things are gone!!! i almost fall down at de staircase juz now, but luckily i stand near de railing if not i will row down de stairs...

2008-03-10T21:05:00.000-07:00

2day u talk 2 me face 2 face... i feel it's better tis way cuz we can talk clearly!!! from now i will try 2 4get everything and pls give me time!!! if u talk 2 me and i happen 2 ignore u then let me cool down 1st... cuz u r de 4th person who hurt me... i really need alot of time 2 heal my heart!!! promise me tat we will be best fren 4ever k!!! huda promise me 2 be my best frenz and now is ur turn 2 promise me... make sure u dun break tis promise!!! i will try 2 concerntrate on my studies, frenz and family 4 now!!! i noe love hurts... i need 2 study hard now!!! i haf 2 test tml, i can't afford 2 fail!!! i wan 2 pass!!! i haven study yet, i got no time!!! i'm having headach now!!! i wan 2 thk dear 4 ur last hug!!! i will rmb!!! thk!!! i cry not becuz of u, is becuz my heart hurts... can u imagine tat i haf been hurt for 4 times??? tis time is de longest & deepest relationship i haf ever gone through!!! i treasure it alot but now it is gone!!! my feeling 4 u is still there but i hope time will heal all my wounds & take away all my pain!!! i'm hurting badly now!!! my heart has totally break!!! fiona, pls lend me ur shoulder again if i cry tml!!! thk 4 ur hug 2day!!! i'm alrite!!! i'm a strong girl, dun worry abt me k!!! nabila dun worry abt me too!!! i'm strong!!! juz give me time & i will be back 2 normal!!! "time" i hope it will heal soon!!! it's really pain, u won't wan 2 feel tis pain, cuz it is painful, sour, bitter and hurtful!!! once agian, i wan 2 thk u 4 entering into my life, giving me so much happiness & i wan 2 thk u 4 leaving me giving me a sad day!!! but nvm!!! we r still best frenz and juz continue from here!!! our journey begins on 5 dec 2007 and it end on 8 mar 2008!!! pls keep all tis memories wif u cuz i will keep it wif me till i die!!! THK!!! my last words 2 u... i love u!!! i will not talk abt relationship again starting from now!!! goodluck 2 ur future!!!

2008-03-09T07:02:00.000-07:00

4 de whole nite, i really can't sleep!!! u keep coming 2 my mind... ur conversation on msn keep appearing on my mind and de time we spend tgt keep appearing too... i keep flipping myself on my bed, somemore i keep crying!!! i ask myself wad exactly did i do wrong tat u wanted tis break??? but i nv do anything wrong, or maybe i haf... but u really nv give me a proper reason y u ask 4 tis break k!!! u hurt me so much!!! tis whole nite is terrible... i juz came out from my room... saw my mum, she ask me y ur face so red??? i tel her i was very cold!!! then she ask me again, y ur eyes so swollen??? i tel her i'm very cold and my eyes was very itchy tat's why i rub untill it become swollen... Arrrrrrrr... u won't noe how much pain u cause me, cuz u r not me!!! my heart is totally break since ytd nite, juz becuz of tis "SUDDEN BLOW"!!! ur break is very sudden, & u expect me 2 face it??? i dun noe wad 2 do??? y muz u leave me when i love u so much??? since ytd nite... i noe, from tat moment onwards my life will change cuz ur attitude 2 me changes so fast!!! dun bother 2 care 4 me... cuz i'm not worth ur care!!! i say already!!! i will support ur decision & i will respect ur ans rite!!! although it hurt me alot but de whole nite, i haf though through... maybe i'm de cuz of everything tat's y u ask 4 tis break but i dun noe... but still i hope u will find someone better then me soon!!! i wish u all de best & hope u can get her soon!!! dear, i still love u!!! i haf not get over u yet!!! i got no mood 2 do anything now!!! i hate 2 lie on my bed now cuz de moment i lie down... u will appear!!! i dun noe... i'm really stupid 2 fall in love... i really haf no more faith in relationship anymore!!!

Dear, thk 4 all de memories tat u haf given 2 me... i will always rmb... i will keep it 4 de rest of my life and i will bring it along wif me till i die, i hope u will keep them wif u too... my love 4 u is really strong and i'm so serious 4 tis relationship untill i end up hurting myself... maybe i was wrong 2 fall in love... i'm very depressed... u r like a part of my heart, but now tat u haf leave me... my heart has already break, there's no way i can mend it!!! "let time heals" maybe time will heals all my painful wounds... i nv regret loving u in fact i still love u deeply now!!! de thing is tat u wanted 2 break, i haf got no choice!!! i will wait 4 u no matter wad!!! i will not let anyone replace u from my heart becuz u r de only 1 i love... i juz hope u will come back 2 me again!!! i miss u badly... i wan u back!!! my heart hurts alot alot alot... i dun noe wad 2 do... if i were 2 hug u, i fear of not wanting 2 let u go!!! i'm really depressed!!! i dun noe wad 2 do... i got no mood in anything now!!!
IT'S SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE!!!

2008-03-09T01:32:00.000-08:00

y muz u hurt me la??? u noe how much i love u anot??? how can u juz go off without any reason!!! y muz i go 4 someone better when i already haf u!!! u really hurt my feelings... i hate everything!!! u make me feel like as if tis is de end of de world!!! i hate it!!! at 1st was H... 2nd was J... 3rd was H... 4th was u!!! how many times muz my heart be hurt!!! i hate it!!! i hate 2 fall in love!!! u break ur promise & i hate u!!! u promise u won't leave me wan can, then in de end u leave me!!! i dun noe wad 2 do!!! i juz feel like dying!!! my heart really breaks... i will not fall in love from now on!!! unless i found de person who will not hurt my heart!!! i'm very sad and depressed now!!! pls leave me alone!!! let me pls... sorry!!! i will always rmb de days u guys rejected me!!! juz rmb!!! i hate it!!! idiot, i got so many things 2 say 2 u!!! but i'm confuse now... u really hurt me badly!!! u idiot!!! leave me alone!!! Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

My greatest fear is being rejected!!! *8/March/2008*

2008-03-08T20:36:00.000-08:00

i hate 2 fall in love!!!

i will always rmb ur promise!!! u promise u won't leave me??? i hope u will keep ur promise!!! i think maybe tis is a good time 4 us 2 reflect on our relationship!!! tis week we always fight becuz of some small little things and i cry alot, i dun think is worth it, and somemore u r hot-tempered!!! i think we should take tis time 2 think through properly wad we should do then only we can make our future better... i think tis is also a good time 4 us 2 see how much we love each other and a time 4 me to see how much u love me??? if u love me u sure will continue tis relationship, if u dun love me then i think u will stop tis relationship!!! i dun noe wad is de ans??? so let's take a "break"... give de 2 of us some time 2 think through wad we wan and how we can impove after we "patch"... i hate it!!! tel me ur ans when u r ready 4 TIS RELATIONSHIP!!! maybe u dun love me more then i love u!!! tis is de 1st time u r so serious... if not u won't ask 4 tis "break"... hais... i think i will not call u, see u & msg u untill all de things haf been clear and everything haf been calm down!!! i will respect ur decision & i will support u no matter wad u do, so juz go ahead & do wad u wan!!! i make a mistake by not telling nabila abt tis dream tat's why now it happen... i regret... i wan 2 turn back de clock so tat u won't ask 4 tis "break"... after u say u wan tis "break" i dun noe wad is ur reason & it keep bothering me??? was it becuz we nv trust each other enough???

i think 4 now, my life will temporary change!!! i will not get 2 go out wif u, call u, see u and i will not get 2 spend time wif u le... i think all de time i spend wif u, now i haf 2 spend it on my own!!! my life really change!!! from now on, de moment i lie on my bed i will think of all de times we spend tgt... how long will tis prob take??? i hope it will juz take a few days so tat my life can resume!!! dun worry abt me, i will try 2 cool myself down, try not 2 be sad and i will try not 2 miss u!!! as 4 u, juz take good care of urself!!! if u got any prob in sch, u can still come 2 me, nabila, huda, esther or sha... i hope tis break will faster end so tat we can be tgt again!!!

ok, lijun from now on u muz be strong even when he is not there wif u... be independent & dun drop ur tears again if not when he find out he will get irrtated again!!! take tis time 2 relax urself, empty ur mind, take a break & spend more time wif ur frenz... let him noe tat u can still survive without him by ur side!!! treasure tis chance and give him tis time 2 think through wad he really wan and tat he can also haf a break!!! hope tat after he haf think through he will make a wise decision...

OB...
test is coming... muz study hard alrite!!! hope everyone will pass de test!!! CA coming too... start mugging!!! goodluck... Jiayou...

2008-03-07T20:48:00.000-08:00

i'm depressed!!! i dun noe why la... u think i like 2 cry!!! pls??? becuz of u i can't stand it!!! i hate it!!! i dun noe wad u r doing??? i tel u la, dun give up on her... wait till de time is rite then u go 4 her k!!! then i think maybe i should let u go!!! hopefully she will accept u also!!! hmm... i dun noe wad 2 do??? i noe 1 day u will leave me... 100%... hais... i love u so much and 4 sure i can't bear 2 let u go de... dear, i love u alot, u noe??? i think u dun noe!!! juz now my heart breaks k!!! u always say things which will ................... haiya i dun noe how 2 say but i juz hope u can get her soon!!! it's ur wish rite??? hais... pray tat u won't leave me k!!! hais... :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

2008-03-06T21:37:00.000-08:00

"SHUT UP"

hmm!!! i dun noe why i keep asking u 2 shut up??? haiya i got blister le... pain can!!! hmm... hope nth will happen tml and hope de match can go on smoothly!!! also hope tat we won't fight tml!!! i love u!!! take care of ur toe!!! go sleep early la... PIG!!! i'm so tired!!! going 2 sleep soon... goodnite!!! sweetdream!!! hais... hais... hais... TSK!!! so irrtating... u pissed me off 2day!!! u make me & nabila very headach can!!! u & u cannot be tgt!!! haiyo!!! then de 2 of u expect me & nabila 2 cut ourself up into half izzit??? both so stubbon!!! i dun noe wad 2 do le!!! next week is test week!!! haiya!!! i'm going 2 study le... i scare i will fail 4 OFC!!! somemore is 50% can!!! 50% is alot of mark!!! hais... how??? i really muz start mugging now be4 it's too late!!! i scare le!!! i'm so stupid la!!! i'm very blur tis few days??? wad am i doing??? haiyo!!! i hate it... i'm so blur la!!!

2008-02-29T11:54:00.000-08:00

OSA lesson Mr goh was so angry wif us untill he cancel our lesson!!! omg!!! OSA is o important can!!! hmm, we wasted our 1 hour lesson!!! our class is so so behind others classes, dun noe if we can catch up anot??? anyway tis is a lesson 4 u 2 learn!!!

went back 2 sjc 2day!!! hmm, saw some juniors going 4 NPAP!!! lalala... goodluck 2 them!!! now is their turn, still can rmb de times when we went 4 NPAP!!! hmm, i miss my squadmates!!! then went 2 see de juniors at basement!!! saw de sec 1 batch, hmmm, there are so few of them!!! only 24 if i'm not wrong??? hmm... anyway hope they will enjoy themself in their future wif NPCC!!! hahas... dear sec 1... i bet u guys will definitely enjoy ur life wif NPCC!!! SURELY NO REGRET!!! hahas... goodluck 2 all of u, dearest juniors... i love u guys... take care alrite!!!

Dear, thk 4 de rose!!! i got shock by u can??? haiyo!!! so scary!!! hmm, after tat we went 2 play soccer... u keep saying me!!! hais... nvm!!! cuz all de things u say is true!!! lalala!!! went home, nth happen... lucky if not i will get upset again!!! Dear, i love you!!!

lalala!!! so boring le!!! ytd went 2 god place!!! nth happen, good!!! juz hope it will continue like tis 4ever!!!

2008-02-28T21:44:00.000-08:00

MDP lesson was better 2day, instruction was a bit more clear compared 2 yesterday!!! hmm, i dun noe how le la!!! juz 4get it!!! hmm, i dun noe le!!! i juz hate my life k!!! i love u!!! hmm, go sleep early k!!! take care... bye!!!

i hate u, pls get lost la!!! u r not a prince or a king can!!! juz get out la!!! juz becuz of u everything turn out 2 be in a mess!!! seriously juz get lost if u r not happy, dun add prob 4 me can!!! u stupid idiot boy!!! i really hate u!!! tis is not funny!!! i hate my life wif u around!!! dun ever try 2 mess wif me cuz i will not let u off!!! juz simply get out of my life, u idiot moron!!! i hate u!!!

2008-02-27T23:42:00.000-08:00

nabila: i'm sorry... i noe i haf given u alot of trouble... i noe u r pissed wif me... but i try not 2 pissed u off again!!! i dun noe why i juz can't take it when he start it!!! u noe wad i mean rite??? hey, u too, cheer up alrite!!! i will always be there 4 u!!! no matter wad happen, dun give up k!!!

2day, MDP lesson!!! Arrrrrrrrrr... so stress!!! i dun noe how 2 do de photoshop thinggy!!! i think de instruction is not clearly given 2 us!!! nabila was so stress tat she dun noe wad 2 do!!! then after tat i tel her 2 do again & again & again!!! but i ownself also dun noe how??? Arrrrrrrr... i hope Mr Goh can give us de instruction more clearly next time!!! i'm sorry nabila... i cuz u so much problem!!!

OSA lesson, Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! tis is worst!!! 4 de 1st time i was so lost during tis lesson untill i stone there like nobody business!!! i dun noe why la, i keep feel like vomiting??? thk nabila 4 ur oil!!! thk, yufang, serena, ferries and those who haf help me 2day!!! sorry is my fault, i was not feeling well tat's why!!!

2008-02-26T20:52:00.000-08:00

Dear, rmb de promise u make 2 me!!! i will rmb de!!! hmm!!! i dun wan 2 die, i wan 2 treasure all de times i haf wif u!!! Dear, i trust u and i believe u, hopefully u won't break my heart k!!! i love u alot, and i dun wan 2 lose u... can u ans my question??? wad if 1 day my chicken really find out abt us, will u still hold on 2 me tightly, or will u juz let me go??? muz recover soon alrite!!! see u tml!!! i love u!!!

OSA lesson was stressful 2day!!! i dun understand de chapter!!! it's getting harded and harded!!! test is coming, i scare i might fail!!! how??? haiya, i'm so irrtated by tis thing!!! stop bothering me can!!! y muz u make me suffer!!! y can't u juz let me go??? i need my freedom, i need my space!!! i wan everything 2 go away... dun bother me!!! i will make my life more meaningful from now on even if u wan me 2 suffer!!! i dun care cuz i dun wan 2 fight wif u!!! i wan 2 fight 4 my future!!! i got plans 4 my future already, i hope u will not ruin my plans!!! let me persue wad i wan... i wan my dreams 2 come true!!! pls dun stop me and dun object my decision, i juz hope u can give me de support 2 carry on wif wad i wan 2 achieve in my future, yet 2 come!!! i wan 2 do sth tat will really make me happy!!! pls encourage!!! even if u dun appove, i will still wan 2 do de things i like, cuz those are de things i wan 2 achieve in my future life!!! i hope u can give m de support...

2008-02-25T21:14:00.000-08:00

Dear, 2day i was very upset!!! i think juz now was my fault, cuz i should haf say clearly 2 u where to meet??? but u shouldn't haf scold me rite??? when u hang up my calls, i was panic... i dun noe how!!! i scare u might get angry!!! then nabila, sorry i noe u can't stand me... but i was juz upset by him!!! then when i use nabila phone 2 call u, cuz my phone got prob, u didn't ans!!! u off ur phone somemore??? i tel u, if i dun love u i can't be bother 2 call u so many times!!! juz becuz i love u so much and u hurt my feelings so many times!!! i always cry, even if i cry becuz of u, i wouldn't tel u!!! i really love u so much!!! i hope u will not make me worry again!!! juz now i went 2 CP, i saw huda, i'm sorry huda!!! i can't take it tat's why i cry!!! then after saying bye 2 nabila and huda... i wanted 2 go 2 ur place!!! but i call sha and she ask me to go and find her, so i went to find her... as i was walking out of CP... i fall while i was walking!!! cuz i was very sad, i dun noe wad happen 2 u!!! then i was in a lost!!! my mind was empty!!! i only think of u at tat moment!!! hais!!! sometime i juz wish i could tel u how much i love u, but i juz dun dare!!! i was so upsets la!!! i dun noe le!!! i'm very very terribly upset tis week!!! i hate 2 let u see i cry!!! i dun wan u 2 see me cry, i can't take it!!! i was always happy but in my heart, i'm crying like hell!!! DO U NOE TAT??? DO U EVEN CARE??? I THINK U DUN NOE??? i was very very piss wif myself!!! i really hate it when i cry, i hate de sound of how i cry!!! it's sound irrtating la!!! i hope u will recover soon!!! take good care of urself!!! drink plenty of water!!! goodnite!!! go sleep early!!! i love u!!! tml i can't see u!!! :( i'm upset again!!! hais!!! if i cry tml, leave me alone!!! cuz i need 2 think properly becuz my heart is so weak now!!! tis week i cry almost everyday!!! i need time 2 heal!!! pls give me time!!! sorry if i ignore u or wad!!! pls 4give me!!!

went 4 BL interview 2day!!! i was very nervous juz now!!! i dun noe why??? then in the end dewi, kenneth and me went in 4 de interview tgt!!! i scare my interview will be unsuccessful!!! i hope i can get into BL!!! juz hope tat the few of us who wants 2 join BL can get selected!!! goodluck ppl!!!

tml there is test!!! Arrrrrrrrrr... anyway goodluck ppl!!!

2008-02-24T17:55:00.000-08:00

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! i think we need time 2 cool down now!!! i'm sorry, i'm de caused of everything!!! i really hate it!!! i'm sorry!!! i promised i won't tel u i wan 2 die le!!! dun block me can??? u really make me feel upset!!! i'm sorry, i didn't mean 2 piss u!!! but i think i'm at fault!!! i always started it so is my fault!!! Arrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! nvm!!! i dun noe wad is happening!!! why u become so angry???

2008-02-24T02:44:00.000-08:00

UO0108B our class blog is going 2 be opened on mon!!! yeah!!! can see our blog by tml!!! lalala!!! OB rox!!! i love my class!!! haha!!! see u guys!!! bye!!! take care!!!

2008-02-23T20:46:00.000-08:00

dear, if ever 1 day i really die, pls dun hate me but go for orange k... i feel tat living in tis world has got no more meaning 4 me... dear, thk 4 adding colours to my life but i really can't live, i wan 2 leave tis world so tat i can be alone!!! i'm sorry!!! pls dun hate me instead thk me!!! cuz if i die, u will haf a chance to go for her!!! i dun noe wad i'm talking!!! i'm sad, angry, lost & confuse!!! i may be stupid but i really dun wan 2 continue living!!! dear, i scare u will leave me, i'm very scare!!! i dun noe how??? wad if 1 day u really leave me, i will really die!!! i really love u alot, i can't leave without u!!! hais!!! i dun noe how le!!! ever since u enter my life, my life did brighten up alot!!! all de times u spend wif me, i will always rmb!!! thk 4 helping me so much!!! i dun wan 2 be a burden 2 u!!! i wish i can die la!!! i always tel u my prob and i feel so irrtated 2 myself!!! i dun noe how le!!! i hate my family!!! my prob is always either family or money matters!!! i dun noe why la... frenz prob usually i won't haf tat prob cuz all my frenz r loving, understanding & nice!!! then love prob happens only sometime not always!!! so de things tat will only make me feel so sad & hurt is my family la... how i wish i can haf a understanding family!!! i really dun noe wad 2 do??? sometime i really feel like cutting myself!!! i really dun noe la!!! i can't take it!!! i hate my life!!! living in tis world is like a misery 2 me can!!! dear, i'm grateful 2 u!!! i dun noe wad 2 say 2 u!!! each time i see u, i can really die, i will get nervous can!!! i dun noe why leh??? u tell me why can!!! haiyo but anyway nvm!!! i hope my life will get better each day!!! tis is de only thing i can do!!! juz hope 4 my life 2 get better!!! sorry dear, juz now i really can't think properly!!! u slap me also no use cuz at tat point i only think of dying!!! i'm so sorry!!! pls dun get angry wif me!!! pls take care of ur leg!!! sorry 4 hurting ur leg!!! i love u!!! take care!!! pls 4give me can???

my bro say 2 me!!! i dun noe why my mother wan 2 give birth 2 u!!! wa lao... i was shock can!!! i was like why my mother wan 2 born me out la!!! i also wonder!!! but my bro is really too much k!!! he wan me 2 die can!!! he say y u dun wan go die!!! i feel like telling him, if i can die, why not!!! he fish la!!! get out of my life ok!!! i dun give a damn 2 u!!! i'm very pissed off!!! u r too much!!! dun force me can!!! i tel u if i die, i see wad happen 2 u??? u get lost la!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i hate u!!! i will rmb tis day!!! i will rmb how u push me!!! u go and die pls!!! i really hate u!!!

nabila pls cheer up!!! no matter wad i will be there 4 u always!!! take care!!!

2008-02-22T21:11:00.000-08:00

2day was fun... morning i called liting & peisi and talk!!! hmm!!! so tis morning went 2 dear house then i went 2 knock at his door!!! who ask him dun wan 2 wake up!!! pig!!! only noe how 2 sleep!!! hais... then later we went 2 play soccer!!! hais, dear injured his leg!!! hmm got so many blood!!! i think dear scare of pain!!! stupid can, i haven even touch ur leg u scare already!!! haiyo!!! hmm!!! play wif whoa, beela, sha, esther and dear juz now!!! then after tat we play wif dear frenz!!! lalala!!! raining!!! so we went home after tat!!!

2008-02-21T04:56:00.000-08:00

hmm... hahas... 2day my grandmother bought dinner 4 us!!! yeah!!! tis week is special 2 me cuz all my dinner are nice!!! hmm, tis tues is our test day again!!! hais, tis 2 weeks got so many test!!! i'm so stress up la, i dun even noe how 2 memorise de whole script can!!! i dun wan 2 haf test!!! i hate de CRN teacher, not Ms Jasmine Teo but another 1... i dun wan 2 say her name cuz i noe alot of ppl dun like her too!!! she's so idiotic!!! she say 2 me tat i nv prepared myself 4 de test, and then she say alot of things 2 me can, all so nagative... but she told nabila (well done) but in de end she also say nabila very nervous nv take her comments... she idiot!!! i dun noe if she will fail me anot!!! but i got a very strong feelings tat i will fail CRN!!! seriously, i dun haf much faith and confidence in myself!!! i dun noe why but i juz can't prepared myself properly 4 tis test!!! whenever i see de teacher, i will get nervous and i will forget all my script!!! actually on tat day, i did prepare myself be4 i go in can... it's juz tat when i enter de room, i see de way she look at me, make me so scare can!!! she look so fierce la!!! but even if i fail, i dun mind cuz maybe tis is wad i deserve cuz i got only 1 chance but i nv treasure it properly!!! so i can only blame myself 4 tat!!! wadever de outcome is... i juz hope nth will happen!!! tis tues got OFC test!!! i juz hope i can do better 4 tis test!!! tis teacher also very fierce, i very scare can!!! i hope i can pass all my test!!! hope everything will be alrite!!! hmm, OSA result is out le... i'm happy tat de whole class pass!!! then now waiting 4 MDP test!!! hope everyone will pass too!!! anyway take care!!! see u guys!!! loves...
pls dun make me cry, cuz i really had enough of crying!!!

2008-02-20T20:49:00.000-08:00

i still think my mum food is de best!!! i miss her food, i'm glad tat tis few day i can eat de food she cook!!! hmm, anyway 2day nabila, dewi, darling, honey, seehian, huimin, peisi, dear and me got de cross country thiggy!!! hahaha!!! we run untill siao le!!! although it's tiring but it is still fun!!! i'm so proud of my dear... he managed 2 come early 2day!!! haha!!! so happy!!! hope he will continue 2 come at tis time everyday!!! hmm, play soccer juz now!!! so fun!!! hmm, i haf so many things 2 say, bu i dun noe how 2 start off!!! so i will not say it le!!! anyway take care ppl!!!
i love u dear!!!

2008-02-19T20:41:00.000-08:00

hmm, juz now i very bad k!!! i laugh at tis person, i think i feel very bad cuz i shouldn't haf laugh at her!!! but anyway she is funny!!! ... u r de most important person in my life k!!! u dun ask me stupid question everytime can!!! i feel like punching u la!!! anyway u better go tml!!! see ya!!!

2008-02-18T20:50:00.000-08:00

yeah!!! 2day got back our OSA result!!! i'm so happy tat everyone passed!!! hmm!!! anyway good job 4 those who have passed well, as 4 those who didn't score very well, like me!!! dun worry continue 2 work hard!!! jiayou!!! tml is our CRN role play!!! haven memorise my script yet, how??? it's 3 pages long!!! i'm dying!!! anyway we still haf 2 go through de test!!! nabila, rmb wad u can alrite!!! then tml i will try 2 help u, muz help me too!!! yeah!!! GOODLUCK PPL!!! jiayou!!!

2008-02-17T13:45:00.000-08:00

if girls cry....Message: If girls cry ..Message: If a girl cries in front ofyou, it means that she couldn't take it anymore...If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life; if you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore... (VERY TRUE!!!) A girl wont cry easily, Except infront of the person who she love the most, she becomes weak... (VERY TRUE!!!) A girl wont cry easily, only when she loves you the most, she put down her ego.Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life. Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you, please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision, you ruin her life. When she cry rite in front of you, when she cry bcoz of you, Look into her eyes, Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling? Think.... Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity, Infront of you, And bcoz of you? She cry not because she is weak, She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity, She cry, Because crying silently is no longer possible, the pain, hurt, n agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside... Guys, Think about it...If a girl cry her heart out 2 you, And all because of you, Its time to look back on wat u have done, Only you will know the answer to it. Do consider it. Coz one day.... It may be too late for regrets, It may be too late to say "im sorry". To my friends...Ponder this message seriously. Dont do this to a girl,You may regret for the rest of yourlife. Maybe in your life, she's theonly one that love YOU the most...

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2008-02-17T01:17:00.001-08:00

i miss u guys alot!!! hope 2 meet up soon!!! hmm!!! how's life??? hope u guys r doing fine!!! good luck 2 ur future endeavour ppl!!! take care!!!

2008-02-17T00:27:00.000-08:00

i really hate my life... i dun get it lor... why muz we always fight wif small things!!! i juz wan my own life, is it too much 2 ask 4??? i dun noe la!!! if ever i can haf my own life, wif nobody around wif me, wif no one controlling me... then only i could be more happier!!! i hate living, seriously 2 me, living is like a misery to me!!! i juz hate it!!! it's vey happening!!! everyday there muz be something there 4 us to fight!!! wad is tis??? if we continue... we really will die!!! i dun like it!!! sometimes i really feel like cutting myself so that i can juz end my life!!! no matter wad i do, it juz won't help!!! i really wan my own life!!! but i can't get it!!! so many things is bothering me, when can it stop bothering me??? i think i haf tolerate it 4 like dun noe how many thousands years!!! i really get pissed off whenever my prob comes!!! i dun noe why!!! i seriously dun wan 2 live!!! i dun noe why i hate my life so much... but now i really hate it alot alot!!! i hate 2 be de biggest in de family!!! it's really stressful, u won't understand... everytime only now how 2 play... if i dun let u go down and play, u will die!!! wa lao!!! then becuz of u i haf 2 keep lying!!! but nvm... i always help u but u always end up betraying me!!! wad is de prob??? i dun noe why i should help u la... it's not de 1st time can!!! u always betray me, i always 4get and 4give u!!! then juz now u betray me again!!! u betray me again and again!!! u think is funny!!! i dun noe y i should help u if u wan to betray me??? i can't think of a solution!!! i really wanna die!!! u dun noe how i feel!!! i really haf a big responsibility can!!! u dun noe anything!!! u only care about urself, only care about playing, wad else do u care!!! i hate it!!! u really make me unhappy!!! y can't u juz respect me, and follow wad i say!!! i really can't understand!!! why muz u be bad!!! i really hate de way u talk 2 us??? it's so rude!!! wa lao... we r not ur dog ok!!! pls respect us!!! i really dun noe how to tel de 3 of u!!! pls help me can!!! u guys always gang up!!! i hate it la!!! u won't understand de feeling!!! i feel so useless cuz i can't even make u guys scare of me!!! i really dun noe wad 2 do!!! god, pls help me!!! if really 1 day i die, then u guys will be de reason!!! i really hate my life!!! i rather spend my time in sch then at home!!! at least in sch i won't be so unhappy!!! at least nobody will fight wif me... nobody will quarrel wif me!!! i will be so happy can!!! tat's why i'm always happy 2 go 2 sch!!! cuz when i go 2 sch, i can 4get all my prob, maybe not all my prob but some of them i will 4get!!! even if i'm tired, i still will get up and go 2 sch!!! cuz tis is de only time when i can be happy!!! somemore nobody will fight wif me!!! i can do wad i wan without anybody nagging or controlling me!!! tat's why i love 2 go sch so much!!! hahas... i love to laugh too!!! sometime when i laugh i really can 4get all my unhappiness!!! but i dun noe why i always end up laughing alot in sch!!! maybe becuz of my frenz!!! they r really funny!!! we can laugh de whole day... but still not tired!!! i really love my frenz alot!!! hais!!! but no matter wad... i still hate my life!!! i really hate it!!!

2008-02-16T21:13:00.000-08:00

yesterday was fun when nabila, huda, dear and me play soccer!!! but after nabila and peisi went home, something happen to dear!!! he go and kick de ball so high untill it went into de adventure park!!! then we wanted 2 climb in but is too high and it's very sharp!!! but in de end, dear manage 2 climb in but when he want 2 climb out, it's very hard!!! cuz it's really sharp and high!!! then huda and me was very worried!!! but in de end we went home happily!!! haiyo, he shouldn't haf kick de ball so high!!! omg, he injured his hand!!! :( erm, 2day went out wif dear, esther and huda!!! but huda went home early... :( so dear, esther and me, we went to meet peisi and her boyfriend at AMK hub!!! then we went to eat Mac!!! after tat dear and esther went to play catching wif some small kids!!! hahahas... so lame la they all!!! then peisi and her boyfriend went home!!! left dear, esther and me!!! we went to hougang mall... shop and train down 2 compass!!! then went to esther house there... sit 4 a while!!! then esther went home, i went 2 dear house there 2 play soccer!!! but i nv play... only dear and pervin play!!! then i reach home at around 8pm!!! so tired la!!!

2008-02-15T21:11:00.000-08:00

later i'm going 2 de god place!!! i hope everything will be fine!!! i'm very scare... how??? haiz, u so busy!!! i dun noe how??? i hope nth will happen!!! hais... i really hate my life la!!! seriously i'm tired of living!!! i dun noe wad 2 do le!!! i'm very tired!!! Arrrrrrr... i'm scare... i hope nth will happen!!!

2008-02-14T21:37:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all!!!

if i cry tat means it's shows tat i luv u badly, deeply!!!

hmm, i really feel so upsets 4 her... i juz hope she will be alrite!!! cheer up buddy!!! :)

i dun really noe wad 2 say!!! but i hope everyday will be alrite and happy 4 us!!!

May Heaven, Grant Wishes!!!

oh gosh, God, Please Help Me, Please grant me my wish!!!

2008-02-13T22:35:00.000-08:00

i really regret!!! i'm sorry... i shouldn't haf ask tat stupid question!!! i dun wan 2 hmm hmm!!! pls dun hmm hmm me k!!! i should not haf start!!! i'm sorry... pls forgive me!!! i really hate it... tis week we keep talking abt love stuff!!! make me so confuse la... i hate myself!!! i hope tat after 2day, everything will be the same still!!! i really regret using de word!!! "hmm hmm" i'm very sorry!!! i feel so guilty after u leave!!! i dun noe why!!! i feel very upset la!!! but i really luv u!!!

2008-02-12T21:15:00.000-08:00

hahas!!! "hahas group" is back 2 normal again!!! yeah!!! should call 4 a celebration!!! i love my cliques!!! they rox!!! we are mutli-racial alrite!!! hahas... i love my honey, darling, nabila, serena, fiona, claire, yu fang, faisal, kenneth, kar ying and of course not forgetting de most funniest person, gwyn!!! hahas... they rox alrite!!! thk 4 being there wif me always!!! hope we will continue 2 stay like tis!!! hahahas!!! "laughing pills" my new nick name from fiona!!! hahas... yeah!!! i'm so happy when i'm wif them!!! lol... they can really make my day!!! lalala... 2day we got alot of taking session!!! hahaha!!! hope tml will be a better day!!!

2008-02-11T15:27:00.000-08:00

In Class
if i could get away wif it, dozens of ppl would haf died!!! *= =* i'm holding back my tears... As i look up into de sky, i saw a cloud, hoping tat i could see u **= =** when u call my name, it starts the flame in my heart, no matter how i try, my love, i cannot hide!!!

At 4rum
sorry juz now, i noe i shouldn't haf cry infront of u & nabila but i juz can't take it, dun tel me u wan me 2 smile when my tears r forcing 2 drop... sorry, i can't take it!!!

At 4rum
u say u won't leave me??? i dun think so!!! even if u dun change, ur heart will eventually change somehow!!! tis is true rite!!! i feel very miserable... i tel u already rite, i dun noe how 2 communicate wif u!!! hmm, not i dun noe is i find it hard... u see, in sch, our time all different, very hard 2 meet, after sch, very late already, no time 2 meet also, at home, bath, eat, do HW, sleep... somemore now i got no phone!!! how 2 msg, talk!!! i wan 2 turn back de clock where we can talk whole day long!!! hais... i dun ask 4 much... 4 now, whenever i can see u i'm satisfied already!!!

muz we really sacrific things 4 our loves one??? can someone ans tis question 4 me???

i hope i won't get hurt cuz now my life is really miserable... at least now i haf u!!! if not i think i could haf died by now!!! i need to talk to huda!!! i miss her, dun noe wad she is doing!!! hopefully i can get a phone soon!!! can u assured tat u won't leave me???

2008-02-10T11:17:00.000-08:00

i juz hope my com will be alrite!!! cuz now suddenly can use... i hope de connection won't run away!!! stay like tis 4ever!!! hais... if i can ever choose my own chicken then it could be so good!!! i really hate my chicken la... i dun like de life i'm living now!!! it's so irrtating la... so many prob happen so suddenly nowadays...

i dun noe who 2 talk 2 la... i juz want 2 talk 2 someone who can really help... but nobody can help!!! want 2 die also cannot... wad to do??? stupid... i hae life... really wonder how come we muz come 2 tis world!!! if god really want us 2 come 2 tis world then he should at least help us rite!!! i dun noe la... i dun think i'm helped by him!!! i juz hope i can see how god look like... he is really magical, sometime he can let miracle happen and sometime he can dun care... not as in dun care but i dun see de change in tat thing happen!!!

i also dun noe how!!! i hate everything!!! i hate my chicken alot, seriously!!! i really wan 2 kill myself... i hate tis week can, it's so super irrtating... cuz really alot of things happen tgt... it's so sudden!!! i wanna die!!!

2008-02-04T15:12:00.000-08:00

i'm not really happy nowadays, due 2 some prob... perhaps only nabila and my dear noe!!! hais... hmm... hope she can manage 2 date her out!!! no matter wad, i hope she will talk 2 her... haiya, i won't be jealous k... dun worry... juz go and talk 2 her alrite!!! erm... no matter wad, life haf to go on still... so y not be happy everyday... we can only live 1 time so muz treasure de time!!! i got nth 2 say already!!! take care!!! :D loves...

i miss all my frenz... wonder how r they???

2008-01-30T15:57:00.000-08:00

I SERIOUSLY HATE 2 FALL IN LOVE!!! STUPID LA, I HATE MYSELF... I DUN LIKE MY LIFE NOW, I THINK U DUN UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL!!! I THINK I'M DE 1 WHO HAS ALOT OF PROB!!! I DUN NOE CAN??? HELP ME LA... HAIYA, BUT I THINK U ALSO CAN'T HELP, CUZ TIS INVOLVE U TOO!!!

i dun noe leh... should i juz give up everything!!! i really dun noe... i'm really tired!!! i'm angry & abit jealous!!! i dun noe why!!! yucks, everything i do, i feel so uncomfortable!!! haiya, wadever... i really hate MYSELF ALOT!!!

2008-01-23T12:53:00.000-08:00

i read my horoscope & ur horoscope juz now!!! it say tat we need 2 haf some quiet time... erm, which i think we really need some quiet time!!! hmm... i dun noe wad's wrong, i keep haf tis feelings tat i will cry when i see u!!! hmm, i'm not sure why too!!! is it becuz i'm stress??? i dun noe also... then now i dun really noe wad i wan... i'm so confuse... ytd, i think alot & i also got no time 2 go & think of u!!! but when i reach home, u keep appearing in my mind, wad is tis la... i'm really confuse... i wan 2 do sth, but i dun noe if i should do it anot??? hais... i'm miserable, do u noe tat??? i bet u dun noe!!! tsk... i dun noe wad is happening!!! i'm very unhappy??? i hope nth will happen!!! hope tat i will be happy again!!! :D i love you!!!

erm Mr Goh say sth juz now!!!
if a boy like a girl but he dun noe if de girl like her anot, he should ask de girl "do u like me" erm, is so straight forward can!!! but anyway he is funny... i enjoy his lesson... he like 2 joke around!!!

2008-01-21T14:42:00.000-08:00

hais!!! i'm in school now, i met alot of new frenz tis few days!!! :) hahas... hmm!!! fiona & faizal live near me!!! so coincidence!!! lols... my house com got prob!!! hais... can't use com so often!!! :( tis few days, life in sch was fun, hahas… nabila, faizal, fiona, gwyn, Claire, yu fang, serena, everyday we will fun some topic 2 talk then we will start 2 laugh!!! We seriously can laugh like mad!!! Sometime we even cannot control ourself and we started laughing out loudly!!! But we did haf alot of fun!!! They really brighten up my life… i love them so much!!! :)

To_______!!!
if she like u wad will u do??? hahas... do u find tis sentences familia??? hmm... i really dun noe wad u will do??? i ask u so many times, u say u will do nth, u will go & jump down??? but i dun think u will do tat??? but really if u still like her, then somemore if she like u, then if u wan 2 go back 2 her??? muz tel me k!!! erm... i dun noe wad 2 say!!! i nv think too much ok, in fact tis few days tis is wad i haf been thinking abt??? i dun noe wad 2 do la, can u tel me wad i should do??? imagine i go & tel my stead tat i got a girlfrenz??? i think my stead will juz faint infront of me straight away??? hais... eeeeee!!! i hate it la!!! hmm, i dun noe wad 2 do, tel me wad 2 do la!!! i scare u will leave me??? i dun noe how??? Will we last??? Will u leave me??? :( if u wan 2 leave me, i can't stop u, but i hope tat it won't happen!!! :(

ps. I love u!!!

2008-01-13T14:27:00.000-08:00

haven been blogging, cuz everytime come home so late then very tired also... hmm!!! then now i finally haf time 2 blog!!! hais, so boring!!! lalala!!! tis whole week was very tiring... then i met alot of frenz there then somemore de sch is so big!!! haha!!! i miss felicia, i wonder where she go!!! i really cannot contact her!!! where is she??? omg, felicia can u juz come out!!! hais!!! i saw angela tat time... chat wif her 4 a while then we went home tgt!!! i miss liting, rebecca, suetping and huimin... how r u guys??? muz take care k!!!

hmm!!! ytd de ytd!!! juz because of JELLY, we quarrel!!! hais then sha also get involve!!! i dun noe how now??? i ask u 2 say sorry 2 her, u dun wan!!! then she say if u say sorry then only she will talk 2 u!!! hais... u 2 very stubbon!!! at 1st we should haf sit down & talk all de things out!!! so tat we won't end up like tat!!! hais!!! JELLY??? haiyo!!! i dun noe why when u & her get tgt i get jealous but when u & other girls get tgt i dun feel jealous la!!! is it maybe cuz i noe her??? everybody was like very unhappy & was angry wif her, but u like nth la!!! then ytd u told me u scolded her!!! hais!!! i dun noe la!!! if not y will i be jealous!!! i keep haf tis feeling tat u still like her, but u tel me u dun like her, i dun noe also!!! hais!!! i really dun noe!!! i did tel u be4 tat, if she still like u, i will give up on u rite??? hais!!! somemore u dream of u & her.......... erm, i dun noe wad 2 say!!! but if u really like her again, then muz tel me!!! so tat i can........... hais!!!!!! can u tel me - am i wrong 2 be jealous???

ps. i love you!!!

2008-01-07T20:27:00.000-08:00

2day is a very very very tiring day 4 everyone!!! orientation, omg!!! so tiring la... keep going around de sch, go up & down... so tired!!! hahas!!! i'm in de same class wif nabila!!! lol!!! at least now i'm not so scare cuz i got her company!!! somemore her index no. is above me only, so coincidence!!! hais... my leg hurts!!! i hope tml won't be so tired, de sch is really really super big!!! hmm!!! anyway i'm very tired!!! i'm going 2 eat now!!! bye!!! take care!!!

2008-01-06T20:05:00.000-08:00

omg!!! it's like so fast can!!! 10 more hours & we will be starting sch!!! lol... i wonder wad will happen tml!!! anyway juz hope tat everything will goes on well!!! erm!!! haf 2 go 2 bed early 2nite!!! hahas... i miss my sch, sch food & my frenz and of course not forgetting mother thiru!!! omg!!! i juz can't imagine all de time we spend tgt!!! going vivo after sch!!! staying back in sch playing basketball, hanging out at compass, watching movies tgt, spending time wif each other & celebrating each other birthday, outing 2 sentosa!!! all those things happen during de pass 4 years??? so fast can!!! tis year my birthday was a very happy wan cuz got so many ppl who help me celebrate & they even give me a big shock + surprise!!! although u guys ask me 2 kiss my mum but then i really nv do it!!! lol!!! but still i was very happy!!! i will always rmb all those times!!! i miss those time, really much!!! i hope i can turn back de clock, but it's too late!!! anyway muz treasure de present!!! so tat i won't haf regret again!!! then now everyone will be going 2 different sch & somemore it will be hard 4 us 2 meet up too!!! :( i juz miss u guys so much!!! really hope tat we can meet up soon!!! tml it's going 2 be a new day 4 everyone, so stay happy k!!!

2008-01-06T10:14:00.000-08:00

i finally change my blogskins!!! stupid i hate black cats now!!! eeeee!!! yucks...

2008-01-05T22:14:00.000-08:00

i realise tat i really haf alot of prob tis few days!!! i dun noe wad is de matter or prob wif me, i find myself irrated so often... wadever i do... i hate myself can!!! i dun noe wad is my prob la!!! then sleep also will dream of de same dream over & over again!!! i hope tat dream won't come true!!! i hate myself!!! i'm sorry shan!!! i dun noe tat i will become like tat, untill u tel me tat i'm crazy!!! thk 4 telling me wad happen!!! i really can't rmb wad i do 2 her la!!! i though is her fault, but u keep telling me is my fault!!! hais... i really dun noe!!! anyway thk 4 being there 4 me when i always needed someone there!!! thk 4 helping me, i feel so helpless & i feel very bad cuz i can't help u but in return, u help me alot!!! thk!!! i love u!!! hope u will continue 2 stay by my side!!! i promise i will try my best 2 help u if u got prob k!!! i really love u!!! haha!!! i hope u can cheer up too!!! maybe cuz de both of us got prob so we can talk 2 each other better!!! but i hope my prob & ur prob can be solve quickly k!!! nah, i'm going 2 let u use de com now!!! take care!!!

i can feel tat we really got nth much 2 say tis few days, wad happen... hmm!!! omg!!! i think is my fault again!!! cuz i really hate myself!!! u dun noe anything la!!! how i wish u were there 4 me when i needed u can!!! i think i very moody nowadays!!! hais, i dun noe la!!! but i juz hope tat i will solve all my prob fast!!! dun worry la!!! i'm de 1 who got prob, not u!!! so dun worry too much!!! i love u!!! gtg!!! sis going 2 use de com now!!! take care!!!

2008-01-04T22:50:00.000-08:00

haha, met thenmozhi on de bus 2day & guess wad, she will be taking de same course as me!!! yay!!! i hope tat we can be in de same class!!! lol!!! haha!!!

2008-01-03T23:08:00.000-08:00

hmm... sch going 2 start soon!!! haha!!! juz hope tat everything will be alrite when sch opens!!! haha!!! it's going 2 be fun i think!!! can meet alot of ppl!!! lol!!! lalalalalala!!!

2008-01-02T13:19:00.000-08:00

haha!!! my siblings are starting sch 2day!!! lol!!! tis morning wake up at 9am, follow my mum 2 my sis sch... cuz of some books thiggy!!! hahaha!!! then my sis cry tis 2days!!! i was wondering why!!! i talk 2 her, but it doesn't seem 2 help!!! cuz she is very upsets!!! her sch bookshop is so lousy la, everytime i go there buy books they will say OUT OF STOCK, PLS COME BACK AGAIN!!! i went back so many times but she keep saying NO STOCK!!! i dun noe wad is de prob!!! where can like tat wan!!! i juz hope tat my sis will not cry anymore!!! then now she's sleeping wif me... hope tat she will be happy!!! i can tel tat she is very worried!!! but i still wan her 2 be happy still!!! haha!!! was talking on de phone wif her ytd, till 5am!!! haha!!! lol!!! erm!!! my sis juz came back... lol!!! de time is really fast!!!

2008-01-01T18:35:00.000-08:00

tml they will be starting sch!!! juz hope everything will be alrite 4 them!!! hmm!!! it's a new year!!! so fast!!! erm!!! anyway juz hope tat everything will be fine 4 everyone!!! haha!!! i miss u!!!

wad is ur new year resolution???

2007-12-31T11:25:00.000-08:00

erm!!! i'm blogging!!! haha, went 2 CP ytd wif my aunt & uncle!!! lol!!! hmm... i think 2nite we r going 2 de count down party!!! hahaha!!! so fast going 2 2008 already!!! erm, time really flies!!! haha!!! anyway juz hope tat everyone will stay happy!!! lalalala!!!

haha!!! wake up at 9:30am tis morning, went 2 de market wif my mum & dad!!! hahaha!!! lol!!! then now i'm back!!! hahaha!!! 2 more days!!! my sis & bro will be starting sch!!! haha!!! i'm waiting 4 my turn!!! i dun wish 2 stay at home, so boring!!!

2007-12-28T17:25:00.000-08:00

u idiot la!!!

2007-12-26T17:56:00.000-08:00

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do u haf fun 2day??? i hope u do!!! hahaha!!! cuz i do haf fun, although de time is short but really la de time we spend tgt, u really make my day!!! haha!!! time is really precious!!! muz treasure it!!!

even if i can't bear 2 go, i still dun haf a choice cuz if i dun go de more prob i will haf!!! hahaha!!! but then i will still find time 2 go out wif u!!!

erm!!! wad am i doing now!!! i think i'm mad!!! hahaha!!! anyway u can burnt de letter away!!! dun keep it, but if u wan 2 keep then keep lor!!! lol!!! i miss u!!! i'm stupid enough 2 let myself fall in love again!!!

yea!!! mum is out!!! :)

2007-12-25T16:53:00.000-08:00

hmm!!! i'm going 2 reply those ppl who tag me!!! hahaha!!! yea... Merry Christmas 2 all!!!

huda- yea is very funny!!! hahaha!!! anyway sorry ytd!!! haha!!! i though i make u angry!!!

beck- laughing partner!!! hahaha!!! yea, merry christmas too!!! i miss u lots!!! hey muz take care k!!! hope 2 meet up soon!!! hahaha!!!

lishan- hahaha!!! i know u miss him, but then u can't do anything!!! anyway i hope u can be with him ok!!! don't worry, stay happy k!!! don't be sad... i'm going 2 tel u my answer... i won't cry ok!!! hahaha!!! happy new year too!!!

cecilia!!! merry christmas too!!! take care!!! hope 2 see u soon!!! will link u soon!!! hahaha!!!

nat- yea!!! hahaha!!! but i also can't do anything

2007-12-24T14:37:00.000-08:00

haha!!! went 2 a place ytd!!! then there's alot of god there so ya!!! went 2 greet all de god there!!! then after tat i saw a BUNG!!! hahaha!!! quite handsome la but very tall!!! then i heard de god talking 2 de mum!!! so de god talk alot of things then later de god ask de mum wheather if her daughter got any stead??? so de mum reply NO!!! so de god say now i tel u ur daughter has been going out wif de stead till very late then everytime come home so late & then de god go & tel her mum tat her daughter stead is a gurl la!!! then de mum was like very shocked!!! then de god ask her mum, u didn't notice tat ur daughter has been staying outside untill very late??? so de mum say no cuz her mum is busy working!!! so ya!!! after tat i saw her mum beating her daughter wif an umbrella!!! then de god was very fierce can!!! then i was like hmm omg!!! haiya!!! i dun noe la!!! so scary!!!

all i wan 4 christmas is Youuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!