hey, hello!!! if 1 day i really run away from home, dun ever think of finding me back... tis is wad u bought upon me... pls dun blame me... i'm feeling very terrible... after u took my phone, i suddenly break down & cry... i dun noe why, but i haf tis terrible feelings in my heart which make me want to cry... so i juz cry & u dun even noe!!! then when jean call me, u scold her... ok, i dun blame u 4 tis... but can u at least give me some privacy... you always use god to threaten me... I REALLY FEEL VERY PRESSURIZE!!! perhaps, i'm really thinking too much, but i noe wad i'm doing... why can't u let me do wad i wan!!! ok, 1st u dun give me freedom like how others haf... i dun blame u 4 tis... 2nd u can't give me some privacy... ok, i also dun blame u 4 tis... 3rd u dun allow me to go find jobs... ok nvm!!! but wad hurt me most is when ur frenz ask u, why i nv go find work... then u say cause i very lazy and i very stupid, how can i go work... later i go work, u will lose face... OK, U LOSE FACE, MY PROB AR??? eh, is u dun allow me go find work wan ok... why muz u look down on me... why??? u dare say i lazy... i tell u dun noe how many idiot time tat i wan to go find jobs rite!!! is u dun allow ok... why muz u say ur own daughter untill like tat!!! i felt totally demoralized can!!! hello, I'M A HUMAN!!! I DO HAF FEELINGS WAN... i dun care if my uncle & aunt look down on me... BUT U ARE MY MOTHER, I DIDN'T EXPECT U TO LOOK DOWN ON ME... i haf nv ever though tat u will look down on me, cause everytime u will help me when ppl look down on me, but now i dun noe wad kind of medicine u eat 2 become like tat!!! y muz u make me feel so hurt!!! i hate it!!! i hate u!!! i hate everything!!! wad king of mother r u!!! i'm really confuse!!! sometime u appear to be nice, sometime u appear to be so evil!!! tis is de first time, ever in my life i feel so hurt!!! because my own mother look down on me too!!! 16 years!!! tis is wad i get from u!!! i can't stop u if u really want to look down on me!!! go ahead and tell ur frenz tat i'm stupid ok!!! i tell u, u noe why i so stupid??? because u are stupid tat's why i become like tis!!! i'm really upsets... pls dun tell ppl tat u r my mother... i'm really very upsets now!!! I FEEL SO HURT... sometime i really envy ppl... but i also cannot do anything!!! i dun understand!!! i'm already 16... why can't i haf my own freedom!!! i'm no longer small ok!!! i feel hurt when de words "STUPID" comes out of ur mouth... I ADMIT TAT I'M NOT SO DARING COMPARED TO MY BRO & SIS!!! BUT STILL U DUN HAF TO TREAT ME LIKE TAT RITE!!! My mother has never approved on anything I did, I'm not a good daughter in her eyes!!!i dun want to be de biggest!!! i haf so many responsiblity!!! i dun noe wad i do is correct anot!!! i everytime help my bro & sis but lie to my mum!!! then if i help my mum, my bro & sis will go against me!!! i really dun noe wad to do!!! no matter wad i do!!! my mum will not be happy!!! then i will get scolded by my bro & sis!!! i really dun wan to be de biggest!!! i haf so many things to care!!! but then i can feel tat i'm not doing a good job!!! i really can't help!!! somemore my bro & sis is so irrtating!!! they act as if they are de biggest!!! they dun even respect me la!!! so wad can i do!!! my mother always ask me dun let my bro & sis go down & play, but they juz run out of de house without letting me noe!!! then when my mum call me, i can't even find them, i haf to bluff my mum and tell her tat my bro & sis are sleeping, eating or bathing!!! I HAD ENOUGH LA!!! i dun understand why they like to go down and play so much!!! then when i shout 4 them, i shout untill i want to die already, they also ignore me!!! i really hate it!!! i also cannot tel my mum tat they go down, but i really hate it!!! everytime i haf to shout 4 them, i hate it when they ignore me!!! why can't they understand me!!! if anything happen to them, how am i going to ans to my mum!!! nobody understand how i feel!!! sometime i feel so tired taking care of my bro & sis, they are so stubborn!!! but i can't help, tis is my job!!! being de biggest in de family is a great great disaster, i feel!!! can they juz stop being so irrtating & stop giving me prob!!! i really dun noe wad can i do!!!I'M AT A LOSS!!!at least now i'm trying to think wheather i should continue to move on or wad!!! i really wish i can lead a simple life with peace!!! wad should i do now!!! i'm really confuse!!! i dun noe if i should endure or wad!!! i really tolerate it 4 so long!!! ok, since sec 1 something happen then u start 2 become so strict wif me... ok, i dun blame u... cause tat time i did do something wrong!!! but tat doesn't mean tat, if a person do something wrong, tat person will be bad 4ever... HELLO!!!why can't u give ppl chance... ppl do change rite!!! i used to tell my aunt all my prob and she used to console me & help me!!! but now, i dun think i can tell anyone!!! i did though of killing myself ytd!!! but whenever i though of it, i will get headach!!! should i juz end my life??? when can i be free, when can i go work, when can i haf privacy, when can i be happy!!! i'm really confuse!!! i feel so terrible!!! ytd nat told me not to cry... but i can't help it!!! when i'm really unhappy, sometime tears will come running out from my eyes!!! how i wish u were there 4 me when i needed u so much!!! sometime i juz feel like hugging u, telling u how terrible i feel!!!
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loves & hates
LOVES
you
green addidas watch/bag
good results
green, is my life
music, my passion
soccer
basketball
cycling
bowling
swimming
tanning
playing computer
hanging out wif frenz
run
go online
go shopping
chat on de fone
listen 2 music
sleep
HATES
Liar
Betrayer
Backstabber
Teacher
Some PPL in my class
My sibling
Parents who nag
