Tuesday, April 29, 2008
ok, i wan 2 say sorry 2 these ppl!!! i'm sorry huda, natasha, esther & nabila, pls 4give me!!!mo mo ren- xie xie ni mei yi chi dou zai wo shen pang, ke neng wo zhen de mei you ze ge neng li qu mian du ta!!! wo zhen de hen nan guo, wo bu xiang zai huo xia qu le.. wo zhen de wu fa fang xia quan bu de wen ti!!! wo cheng ren ke neng shi wo xiang tai duo, ke shi wo bu neng bu xiang ying wei ta hui zhi qi lai dao wo tou nao li mian!!! xie xie ni yi chi yi lai de bang zhu, ru guo you yi tian wo zhen de li kai, ni yi ting yao bang wo hao hao di zhao gu zhe ta, wo pai wo mei you ze ke neng li, mo mo ren, dai ying wo ni yao hao hao zhao gu zhe ta worrhs!!! xie xie ni!!!
4:24 PM
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Monday, April 28, 2008
hey blog, i'm temporary back!!!thk Ali, roslyn, nabila, fiona, dewi, sabrina & de rest 4 ur help!!!OSA lesson was very fun for me, cuz 2day i really can concerntrate well and i type faster!!! theres's some misunderstanding between 2 of my frenz... i dun wish 2 mention their names... i juz hope they will be alrite!!! cheer up karying!!!Dear, i miss u alot, i really couldn't sleep well, i dreamt of de dream again ytd, i'm having nightmare... i dun noe wad's wrong, maybe i'm thinking too much!!! hais, i juz love u so much & at de same times i'm very confuse wif myself!!! i really dun noe... my best buddy told me i'm very selfish!!! am i??? i did not give u happiness and i'm very upset, i hate myself 4 not letting u live peacefully!!! i dun noe how!!! i'm so selfish as to keep u!!! but if 1 day u really haf 2 leave me, i can't imagine how my life is going to be like!!! i'm sorry dear, i'm very selfish, yes i'm!!! sorry 2 bother u so much!!! i hope now everything won't change, let it remain de same!!!
2:21 PM
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008
2day went 2 cafe 1 then run 2 cafe 2 then run 2 cafe 1 again wif, nabila, roselyn, sabrina & me!!! omg, we run like a mad bull!!! eee... we r crazy becuz of sth!!! hmm, omg... shall not say anymore... juz take care!!!thk nabila, huda, nat, fiona, dewi, roselyn, sabrina, serena, seehian & karying 4 being there 4 me always...
lastly i wan to thk Mr goh 4 helping me... thank you!!!
4:29 PM
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Thursday, April 17, 2008
15 April 2008!!! min yee passed away at 12:10pm (my dearest cousin)
i will always rmb tis day!!! rmb u leave me on tis day and i will not get 2 see u again!!! my life will not be de same again, everyone seem 2 be leaving me!!! i'm sad!!! my life is miserable... u r gone & i can nv haf u back!!! thk 4 keeping de secret 4 me 4 so long & thk 4 helping me so much!!! now tat u r gone, who am i going 2 share my probs wif??? who is going 2 help me plan outing again!!! i'm going 2 plan wif her??? i dun think i can!!! we will only end up fighting... Min Yee, i love u so much & i hope u will leave in peace!!! i'm so sorry i scolded u ytd when u r gone!!! but really u left me all de responsibility & how can u leave me so suddenly??? u won't noe how i feel, if i haf a chance, i wan u back!!! u say i'm ur dearest & let me tel u, u r always my dearest too!!! i miss u alot... i'm really very sad!!! i cried so much and i saw ur tears ytd, i'm sorry i drops all my tears on u!!! i noe u did not leave in peace cuz ytd i saw ur tears drop down and i was very upsets can!!! i dun even noe if u haf any last wish or wad??? i wish i can help u fulfilled ur dreams!!! dearest, thk 4 de gift, i will rmb de "secret game"... thk 4 de mushroom!!! thk 4 all de support tat u haf given me all along & i hope u will be happy where ever u go!!! take care... i love u!!!
dear, u r leaving me too??? why??? hais... see, everyone is going 2 leave me, i won't be happy!!! thk 4 coming back!!! i juz can't 4 de reason 4 me 2 live & de only reason is U!!! i need u in my life and i can't afford 2 lose u, i really love u and i miss u!!!
hey, i dun haf depression alrite, i'm fine!!! i'm totally crazy last week... i haf gone mad and i haf lost my mind!!! but now i will be alrite cuz i haf u back & becuz of u, tis is de reason!!! thk god i haf u back!!!
my dear frenz, i'm very upsets, i dun noe if u r still angry wif me, i really hope u can talk 2 me again!!! i miss u so much and i dun think u noe!!! i juz hope we can be like de past again!!!
i'm very stress, i dun noe how!!! i'm still very confuse & very lost!!! hmm, i hope nobody will leave me again!!! dear, i love u, take care k!!!
7:02 PM
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Monday, April 14, 2008
hmm, sch start 2day!!! i really got no mood tis few weeks... i can't even eat can, i noe i'm hungry but i juz haf no mood 2 eat!!! it's terrible... hais... thk god i found u, will u leave me again??? i hope u won't!!! u noe wad u r doing??? cuz i dun noe wad i'm doing... Dear, i really love u alot and i can't afford 2 lose u!!! tis whole morning i feel tat u r like avoiding me can??? i dun noe, only u noe wad nu r doing!!! i really dun noe wad 2 do, i'm confuse... i nv break my promise k, i think and think and think i scare u will break ur promise!!! i'm really lost... i hate when u scold or shout at me!!! i dun noe le, Dear, i really love u, u won't noe how much i love u alrite, cuz u r not in my shoes... dun leave me again can??? hais, i'm scare and i really got no mood to do things... Beela, huda, sha, esther, karying, fiona!!! thk 4 ur concern and care... i will be alrite, dun worry!!! i will blog again if i haf de chance!!! TAKE CARE... GOODBYE!!!
12:26 PM
I Love You
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
haf not been posting cuz of my com!!! hais, i'm living in agony!!! i'm so sad wif a whole lots of things!!! i wonder, i wonder and i wonder... if not 4 u, i couldn't be who i'm!!! i juz dun noe wad 2 do, i'm so depressed!!! 2days ago, i went east coast wif nabila, karying, esther, sha & nat!!! Arrr... i'm so stupid , i feel... nothing gonna change my mind... i'm in a lost and confuse state... dear, i dun noe wad 2 do!!! i told u it's u who make me realise how important and how beautiful life is but now i'm not going to treasure my life cuz i really got no mood 4 anything now!!! becuz of u, i feel tat life is meaningful but now??? i really dun noe if i should carry on living or not cuz i really can't find de reason why i should continue to live??? i really dun noe wad to do!!! it's u who make me realise alot of things and becuz of u i haf learn alot of things from u and i get happy everyday when i was wif u, but now really i'm not going to be happy anymore!!! i wanna thk these ppl 4 being there 4 me always and always there to stop me from doing stupid things... without my frenz, i think by now i will be in either heaven or hell!!! i wanna thk god 4 giving me so many good frenz... if esther did not tel u abt my prob, i think u will not talk 2 me rite!!! i noe esther 4 abt 9 years and she noe all my prob and she always console me... i really wan 2 thk her, she really help me alot... maybe she shouldn't haf tel u abt my prob!!! promise??? i really dun noe!!! i only wan u back in my life if i can!!! i dun wan 2 leave u... i really hate myself and i hate everything!!! dear, i really hope i can turn back de clock!!! u noe when i was wif u, i will nv ever think of ending my life and i will spend every min doing all de things happily but now if u were 2 leave me, i tel u i will end my life rite away cuz i really got no meaning in my life... wad's de point of living when i can't find de meaning 4 me to live??? i got no power 2 go on now... i'm very sad, depressed, lost and very confuse!!! i dun noe, dear, i trust u alot and de love from u is different, u get wad i mean rite!!! hais, i dun noe... if i die 1 day, i hope u guys will attend my funeral and pls dun get angry wif me!!! maybe tis will be my last post!!! i hope u can be mine again!!! hmm, i wan 2 say sth... "treasure de 1 u love be4 u lose them k"!!!
i wan 2 say "thank you" 2 all my frenz mention below... thk 4 being there 4 me always and thk for being so patient wif me... i noe i always give u guys prob, maybe i'm not a "good frenz" but still thk for helping me!!! without u guys, i won't be who i'm 2day!!! all de letters and all de gift meant alot to me!!! i wan 2 say thk u once again and i miss all of u!!! anyway take care alrite!!!
jolene, yueying, cynthia, cecilia, bel, amanda, melissa, bernice, lydia, regina, jamine, lynette, iryani, huifang, szehwee...
peisi, bear, felicia, suetping, angela, yashi, jean, liting, shannon, jiajin, weiting, huimin, szepei...
huda, nabila, esther, sha, nat...
angie, iris, penny, grace, rachel, sareen...
To u...
i hope u will talk 2 me... i try, i try and i try 2 talk 2 u alot of times but i juz couldn't get a reply from u!!! is there a misunderstanding between us??? can u pls tel me de reason y u r angry wif me or de reason y u avoid me??? i wish i can read ur mind, i juz dun wan 2 lose a frenz like u!!! i still can rmb all de times i spend wif u!!! going 2 ur house 2 fetch u then go 2 sch tgt, coming my house 2 play, spending times tgt in sch, sending u home when there's rain and holding an umbrella 4 u!!! i really miss u alot, i hope u can talk 2 me again!!! FORGIVE ME, WILL U!!! i'm sorry if i haf done any wrong things but i really dun wan 2 lose u, i miss de times we talk on de phone tgt!!! i miss u and i miss every moments i spend wif u, maybe u will forget but i will not forget... pls talk 2 me can!!! i dun noe if i should mention ur name, but i hope u will noe how much u mean 2 me!!! our frenzship is important and i dun wan 2 lose it juz becuz of sth!!! i hope u noe who i'm refering to!!! i hope to see u again and i hope we can talk tgt again and share prob like how we used to be in de past... anyway take care...
11:50 AM
I Love You
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
went 2 meet sha then after tat went 2 meet huda then haf a talk tgt!!! then after tat wait 4 her then we went 2 play pool tgt wif sha & esther... had alot of fun 2day... after tat went back to CP, eat there then cab down 2 serangoon 2 meet my family...
9:52 PM
I Love You
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
yeah!!! 2day is April fool, but dun anyhow make fun of ur frenz cuz some ppl die becuz of de april fool jokes... hmm, we get into 800meters run!!! hais... tiring!!! erm, after training went 2 sjc 2 collect my testi then went 2 collect food wif her then went 2 cp 4 lunch & went 2 play soccer again!!! lalala... erm, after tat i went 2 meet my family 4 dinner!!!
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