hmm, i'm glad tat u finally understand wad love is all abt??? nabila, fiona, claire, karying, dewi, serena, peisi, kenneth, gwyn, fish... look all tis ppl haf lots of link... when i read sth juz now, i was stund, i dun noe wad i should do but i feel like crying, "WHY"??? see 4 urself... i dun noe wad i should do??? but everyday i haf 2 face de same old thing... i dun wan tis thing 2 affect de frenzship between nabila & me... now i understand, love can't be force... now, u haf 2 face de same concept too... face it... maybe tis will be good... dun ask 4 sympathy... no use... wad is done is done... juz dun continue doing de wrong thing... i realise de mistakes though is not completely my fault but still i dun noe wad i should do??? i can't run away from u but i juz felt so miserable... understand me will u... "stupid is wad i can describe about me, i was so stupid"... i really treasure tis frenzship, i dun wan it 2 end okay... beela & fiona, i think u guys noe wad happen 2day rite... "Ham & Cheese Biscuit", wad happen, it was dump into de bin... "why"??? is it intentionally??? i regret 4 dumping u into de bin... i'm sorry... it's too late 2 grab u back... why should i be affected??? why i felt tis way, becuz i care... i love u but in de other way round u dun love me??? love involve both parties... if 1 dun love de other, how can de relationship go on... i think of de things u does, it hurts me... i felt terrible in fact i felt more dirty... believe me or not, u r not in my shoe... i dun noe how 2 say, Traitors, Betrayer??? i'm afraid... i'm very very disappointed??? can someone teach me wad 2 do??? i'm loss...
beela... alot has happen 2 us, i wish i can go into ur mind & read wad's on ur mind... i hope we will stay like tis 4ever??? rmb u once wrote 2 me "we r close gurl okay"... when i saw tis sentence, tears almost drop down by my eyes but i can't let it drop cuz it was in a very high class place... i wish de bond in us will stay like tis 4ever... lala, beela, bearla, elmo... i miss u, seriously sometimes when i saw ur face turn pale, i noe wad u r thinking but i juz kept quiet... i noe how u feel girl & sometimes i felt so hurt when ur vain appears... sec 3, in pula ubin, i saw u... at de jetty before boarding de boat i kept looking at u, wondering will we be frenz later on??? once i reach de jetty, we had 2 walk 2hours be4 we reach de campsite... guess wad, we haf 2 do alot of cheers, when i was cheering, i kept thinking wheather we will be in de same group??? but apparently we r not... but nvm we had fun in our own groups... as day past by, we haf already become NCO... sec 4??? when we haf camp again, (ATC) i was in "leo group" but still can't be in de same group as u... nvm, i juz rmb u & whenever i get 2 bath, i'm happy cuz everyone will bath tgt & i might haf a chance 2 bump into u...
was wondering??? 6:00am??? games??? element??? field cooking??? tent pitching??? campfire??? bathing??? lights out??? which activities will i get 2 see u???
but still can't see u... nvm...
during dec last year, i met u... i was happy...
then 1st day 2 ITE... i rmb we were both so scare & we keep hope tat we can be in de same class... Finally we reach sch, when we are walking 2 de auditorum??? we are so panic... when we look at de "Name List", scolling down de index number... i saw (23) Siti Nabila Bte Mohammad... then next i felt scare, i was really hoping tat i can haf a companion juz like u... then guess wad, next i saw (24) Lim Li Jun... I was so happy & we both walk in happily like crazy... rmb we sat next 2 each other, wondering how will our class be like??? all tis memories juz flash down my mind juz now... carry on, when we found our Teacher... "Mr Goh Choon Poh... we find him very nice & funny... then after auditorum, we went 2 class with our CE... then we do alot of things tgt, like, going 2 de toilet, eating, sitting, playing, grouping & now even role play... so many things has happen & we r still grouping tgt... FRENZ??? i really hope tis frenzship won't end... since cherlynn came, we r always seperated, why??? cuz i feel bad when i leave her alone, then when i went wif her, u r left alone??? tat time i really wonder how??? should i cut myself into half??? but all tis has past... after she's gone, we r back??? there was once we had a cold shoulder??? why??? u noe it & i noe it... it's a secret between us... beela, see... so much has happen??? so much, so much, so much... as u say... our frenzship has a story behind & u say u hope tis story won't end rite... i hope it won't end too... nabila, listen, no matter wad happen, i dun wan 2 lose u... hope we will be staying like tis 4ever...
dewi, fiona... thks 4 everything... wow, tat period was such a bad period 4 me, thks for all de patient & thks for tolerating... i dun noe wad's more i can say but really i'm very happy 2 noe u guys... can i juz cry everything out... i really felt very bad... omg, why muz i hate her??? why why why??? why muz i felt tis way??? rmb i always ask WHY & HOW??? i also dun noe why??? dewi, fiona... i rmb there was once at cafe 1... i was standing outside cafe 1 alone & i was very upset... no 1 was there wif me... u noe wad... i saw all of u in cafe 1 eating & talking so happily while i was outside crying feeling so bad... then u guys appear... i went up front 2 call u guys, actually i didn't intend to call u guys cuz i was afraid but i still call u guys in de end... i rmb clearly, i hub u guys, my heart juz sank totally??? it hurt terribly... :( i was very touch at tat moment... then after tat u guys ask me 2 join u guys, i did not agree 2 it, so i went up 2 3rd floor alone... saw sattish, he came & he talk 2 me... from there, i started 2 smile... i rmb everything so clearly, i juz can't get rid of them... dewi, fiona... thks 4 being there...
claire... while swimming, we chat... after chatting each time, i feel tat i'm slowly throwing everything out but rite now, i'm thinking of all de things... omg, i miss de laughing pills... i wan it back... but i dun noe why now i'm feeling terrible... i feel great when i float wif u... wow, i still can rmb de water is so cold... i really admire de thing u do in de water... i dun noe wad is tat but when i saw 2 of de legs up above de water... i felt different... is like watching u dance in de water... seriously, i feel like floating now... claire will u feel better after u done tat in de water... if yes i wan 2 learn, provided i won't get cramp... jk jk... anyway do u feel better after i haf massage 4 u??? sorry if i massage it too harshly... "fruit juice"... tat was ur favourite drink, i guess??? saw u drinking it almost everyday... "BANANA" rmb??? hmm "FATS ar FATS"... sorry i always say tat... but tat was wad i'm most afraid about, i guess everyone is afraid but not as mad as me... so pls dun mind me... sorry... hmm, nonsensical??? i miss everything we does... i hope our frenship will remain & i hope it won't end... karying thks ar... pls cheer up, dun be sad... juz follow ur heart alrite... wadever decision u make, i will support u... dun cry anymore... crying won't help in fact it will make u go blind... so think carefully when u drop another tears... "think wheather is it worth it"??? dun get stress up, when u feel like crying, juz relax urself & think of de happy memories tat u haf... like tat u will feel better... seriously, i haf been through wad u are facing... trust me, time will prove u everything... in life we will always face prob so dun avoid but face it & solve it... maybe meeting up can solve everything then why not meet up??? think carefully before u make any decision okay... dun worry, i will be there 4 u always k... smilez more... cheer up alrite...
4:39 AM
I Love You
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Ouch... my arms hurts... hahas... lols... guess wad, i had a great fall 2day... lalala... i hope my arms will heal quickly, i'm in pain... hahas... hmm, chat wif fiona under block ytd... then chat wif edwin too... lols... hmm, Copy-cat... :) i'm so happy, we went TM tgt wif beela ytd... finally we can go tgt tgt tgt... yeah... hahas hahas hahas... we sign on our photos till we went crazy... :) wow, so tired... went yishun 4 dinner wif my family ytd... hahas... reach home around 12am... bath & went 2 sleep... hahas... oh wait, before i sleep, i go put medicine on my arms & i wrap it 1st... i scare de wound will get infected... i dun wan 2 get infected, later muz chop off my arms give GYWN see... hahas... lols... but it's really a very tiring day & we had so much fun... lalalalalalalalalala... alrite... shall end here... bye... tc... :)
6:49 PM
I Love You
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
2day was fun... at last de few of us get 2 find out somethings from each other... alrite... i shouldn't say much... COPY-CAT should get lost... bye... take care...
6:20 AM
I Love You
Monday, October 13, 2008
hahas... Kbox!!! :) lols... wan 2 hear gywn sing??? wow, serena voice is so nice!!! i think she can go be a singer... "hahas"... hmm, eat Katong laksa, hahas... so nice... we sing & sing & sing... Finally we went home, walk home wif fiona... hahas... was very hungry, finally get 2 eat de food tat my mum cook... :) :) :) :) lalalalalalala... so boring, ytd 1st day of sch... starting was scary but after tat everything went out fine... luckily it turn out smoothly... then sad... beela went bowling... lols... but anyway we all haf our own activities... hope de rest of de day will be fine 4 everyone... :) lols... take care...
8:25 PM
I Love You
Thursday, October 2, 2008
8:54 AM
I Love You
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
hmm??????????????? guess wad??? it muz be a punishment from god... i juz receive a news from my mum 2day... u noe wad she say??? she told me tat my dad uncle juz pass away... is tis a joke??? i believe my mum won't take a person death as a joke... oh my god??? am i dreaming, am i thinking too much??? i ask myself & i slap myself u noe... after a slap, i realise it's real, i'm not dreaming... okay, i'm at a loss... i dun noe wad 2 say, i dun noe wad 2 do & i dun noe how i should react... my silbling doesn't noe wad had happen, they can still play & laugh like nobody business... but wad 2 do??? can't blame them... (children are innocent)... i'm totally at a loss... i really really dun noe wad can i do... i can tel tat my dad hurts 100times more than me... i hope i can be there 2 ease his pain... but i believe my dad is strong, after he find out tis news, he did not show any reaction, in fact he kept quiet... i wish i can go into his heart & find out how he feel... even if he dun breathe a word, i can feel tat he is upset... i can't do anything now... he has gone, everyone is gonna be strong... later my dad & my mum are going 2 de funeral place while me, i haf 2 stay at home & look after my siblings... if i haf de chance, i wish i can see him 4 de last time... but i think i dun haf de chance... nvm... if i go, then my siblings haf to go too, later if they go, they will be sad... i think my parent dun wan my 2 sis 2 worry cuz their PSLE is round de corner... so is better 2 juz stay at home... sometimes i wish i can be a child again... i juz hope they can pass their exams... hais... i really admired my dad... he is such a wonderful father i ever had... i noe he is stong & i hope he can accept tis fact... lucky my dad is strong... but i'm still worried abt him... juz hope tat he will be fine & i hope he can drive carefully... Okay, another prob... recently my mum talk 2 me abt her health prob... all along, i noe tat my mum is weak cuz she has a illness since i was young... but recently my mum told me tat she went 4 a check up & guess wad... she told me tat she might haf 2 go 4 a operation... i was like stunt... i asked my mum: mummy, r u kiddy, dun be mad la... u r fine, why muz u go 4 a operation... guess wad she reply: i told u i went 4 a check up rite & my doctor say tat there's a water ball (i think is a waterball if i not wrong but i noe is a ball inside her stomach), i haf 2 go through a operation 2 get it out if not i will die...then from there i noe my mum is not kidding... now, she is still not sure wheather she haf 2 go through de operation or not but she haf 2 go for a check up again... up till now, my silblings still dun noe anything??? there's so much things tat they dun noe... even my mum own health prob she also dun wan my siblings 2 worry... my mum told me tat if she really haf 2 go 4 de operation, she hope tat she can still live a longer life after de operation cuz she still wan 2 see de 4 of us get married & start our own family... there's so much things i haf 2 worry abt... but wad abt my siblings??? my siblings are really very naughty, i dun noe how 2 teach them??? wadever i say, they won't listen... lols... hahas... wad can i do??? hais... i juz hope tat my dad uncle can rest in peace, my mum health can get better... my siblings can be more obedient... i hope everything will be alrite... i'm so tired... suddenly so many bad news for me... am i suppose 2 laugh or cry??? can i be like my siblings??? can i pretend tat i dun noe anything & juz haf fun??? no, i guess i might not be able 2 do it... okay, i'm gonna be strong... i can't fall at tis point of time... i hope & i pray tat things will get better... i can't help much, i'm so sick too... i got no mood 2 do anything rite now... but i will pray... God pls bless those who are having probs... Alrite... i should stop here, no more tears... i'm not going 2 shear anymore tears... :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( 1st-my siblings 2nd-my parents 3rd-my frenz 4th-myself 5th-my study...
ain't i suppose 2 put my study in de 1st place??? but how can i???
beela, fiona, angela, claire, karying, huiqin... so many ppl... i miss u guys so much... fasting month is over... Happy Hari Raya 2 all de malays... take care alrite... hope 2 see u soon... :D last but not least, i miss OB... hahas... there's so much laughter... hais... i wish i can laugh like mad again... :)
2 b With him forever :D
Fufilled or Unfufilled
Get good results
Earn more money
Big pooh bear
More Bears
New green watch
More shoes
Nice clothes
hope 2 celebrate my birthday wif u!!!
loves & hates
LOVES
you
green addidas watch/bag
good results
green, is my life
music, my passion
soccer
basketball
cycling
bowling
swimming
tanning
playing computer
hanging out wif frenz
run
go online
go shopping
chat on de fone
listen 2 music
sleep
HATES
Liar
Betrayer
Backstabber
Teacher
Some PPL in my class
My sibling
Parents who nag
