haf not been posting cuz of my com!!! hais, i'm living in agony!!! i'm so sad wif a whole lots of things!!! i wonder, i wonder and i wonder... if not 4 u, i couldn't be who i'm!!! i juz dun noe wad 2 do, i'm so depressed!!! 2days ago, i went east coast wif nabila, karying, esther, sha & nat!!! Arrr... i'm so stupid , i feel... nothing gonna change my mind... i'm in a lost and confuse state... dear, i dun noe wad 2 do!!! i told u it's u who make me realise how important and how beautiful life is but now i'm not going to treasure my life cuz i really got no mood 4 anything now!!! becuz of u, i feel tat life is meaningful but now??? i really dun noe if i should carry on living or not cuz i really can't find de reason why i should continue to live??? i really dun noe wad to do!!! it's u who make me realise alot of things and becuz of u i haf learn alot of things from u and i get happy everyday when i was wif u, but now really i'm not going to be happy anymore!!! i wanna thk these ppl 4 being there 4 me always and always there to stop me from doing stupid things... without my frenz, i think by now i will be in either heaven or hell!!! i wanna thk god 4 giving me so many good frenz... if esther did not tel u abt my prob, i think u will not talk 2 me rite!!! i noe esther 4 abt 9 years and she noe all my prob and she always console me... i really wan 2 thk her, she really help me alot... maybe she shouldn't haf tel u abt my prob!!! promise??? i really dun noe!!! i only wan u back in my life if i can!!! i dun wan 2 leave u... i really hate myself and i hate everything!!! dear, i really hope i can turn back de clock!!! u noe when i was wif u, i will nv ever think of ending my life and i will spend every min doing all de things happily but now if u were 2 leave me, i tel u i will end my life rite away cuz i really got no meaning in my life... wad's de point of living when i can't find de meaning 4 me to live??? i got no power 2 go on now... i'm very sad, depressed, lost and very confuse!!! i dun noe, dear, i trust u alot and de love from u is different, u get wad i mean rite!!! hais, i dun noe... if i die 1 day, i hope u guys will attend my funeral and pls dun get angry wif me!!! maybe tis will be my last post!!! i hope u can be mine again!!! hmm, i wan 2 say sth... "treasure de 1 u love be4 u lose them k"!!!
i wan 2 say "thank you" 2 all my frenz mention below... thk 4 being there 4 me always and thk for being so patient wif me... i noe i always give u guys prob, maybe i'm not a "good frenz" but still thk for helping me!!! without u guys, i won't be who i'm 2day!!! all de letters and all de gift meant alot to me!!! i wan 2 say thk u once again and i miss all of u!!! anyway take care alrite!!!
To u... i hope u will talk 2 me... i try, i try and i try 2 talk 2 u alot of times but i juz couldn't get a reply from u!!! is there a misunderstanding between us??? can u pls tel me de reason y u r angry wif me or de reason y u avoid me??? i wish i can read ur mind, i juz dun wan 2 lose a frenz like u!!! i still can rmb all de times i spend wif u!!! going 2 ur house 2 fetch u then go 2 sch tgt, coming my house 2 play, spending times tgt in sch, sending u home when there's rain and holding an umbrella 4 u!!! i really miss u alot, i hope u can talk 2 me again!!! FORGIVE ME, WILL U!!! i'm sorry if i haf done any wrong things but i really dun wan 2 lose u, i miss de times we talk on de phone tgt!!! i miss u and i miss every moments i spend wif u, maybe u will forget but i will not forget... pls talk 2 me can!!! i dun noe if i should mention ur name, but i hope u will noe how much u mean 2 me!!! our frenzship is important and i dun wan 2 lose it juz becuz of sth!!! i hope u noe who i'm refering to!!! i hope to see u again and i hope we can talk tgt again and share prob like how we used to be in de past... anyway take care...
2 b With him forever :D
Fufilled or Unfufilled
Get good results
Earn more money
Big pooh bear
More Bears
New green watch
More shoes
Nice clothes
hope 2 celebrate my birthday wif u!!!
loves & hates
LOVES
you
green addidas watch/bag
good results
green, is my life
music, my passion
soccer
basketball
cycling
bowling
swimming
tanning
playing computer
hanging out wif frenz
run
go online
go shopping
chat on de fone
listen 2 music
sleep
HATES
Liar
Betrayer
Backstabber
Teacher
Some PPL in my class
My sibling
Parents who nag
