went out alone at 8am 2day in de morning!!! i went orchard, then i met a girl outside Orchard MRT station & she was crying... so i walk 2wards her & gave her a packet of tissue!!! then she say thank you!!! i say welcome then she say excuse me, can u talk 2 me 4 a while!!! so i say ok... then we walk & walk & walk and we walk untill somewhere which is very quiet, so we sat there & we had a talk... she ask me, wad is ur name??? i tel her lijun... then i ask her wad is her name, she tel me jesslyn!!! so i say wad u wan me 2 talk abt??? then she say, i'm very depressed, i juz wan 2 talk 2 someone but i dun noe who 2 approach & i hope u can listen 2 me... then i say ok, sure, i will lend u my 2 listening ears... then she say 2 me, my boyfrenz ask me for break juz now & i'm very sad, we have been tgt for 4months & 19days... then juz now i ask him why he wan 2 break wif me & he say 2 me tat he like someone esle... then after she say tis 2 me, it reminds me of de times when me & dear are tgt!!! but nvm... so i ask her, do u really love him & r u sure u wan him 2 married u??? she say 2 me, yes, i love him alot & i hope i can be wif him forever!!! then i say but he like someone esle!!! then she say i'm very sad, i dun noe why he suddenly like another person!!! then i say 2 her, love can't be control!!! then i told her dun cry & i put a tissue on her hand... then she say thanks... i was very confuse too... i tel myself, u r lucky tat u got someone 2 talk too, but me??? then i tel her if u really love him then u try 2 get him back... then she ask me haf u been in love be4??? i say no & i juz feel so sad... then she say, dun fall in love, is so hard... then i say in my heart ya, love hurts alot!!! then after tat i say i hope u & ur boyfrenz can be tgt again but now u haf 2 think 4 urself wad u wan 2 do!!! so she say thank u very much, u r a good person & i believe tat u will haf a good guy in future... then i say oh ok!!! cheer up alrite!!! then she say thanks, i feel so much better after talking 2 u... then i say ok, wadever happens in future, think properly & make a good decision for urself!!! then she say ok... so we went 2 walk walk a while then i went shopping alone again!!! then i spend de whole day talking 2 myself & i keep look at de things around me... then i dun noe why, i'm juz very confuse wif myself!!! i dun deserve 2 be love!!! wad for even if i'm handsome!!! look doesn't matter, but heart matters alot, to me!!!
thk sha (mummy) i miss u & i'm sorry 4 all de things tat i haf done!!!
thk huda (nenek) i miss u too & i'm also sorry 4 all de wrong things tat i haf done!!!
nabila, fiona, huifang!!! i miss u guys too... i wan 2 say thk & sorry... i noe tat i'm a bad person, i dun noe wad 2 do!!! i'm really sorry & thk 4 all de things tat u guys haf done 4 me... i really appriciate it!!! pls forgive me!!!
i haf been thinking, i dun wan 2 rush my brain, i'm going 2 break down soon... i guess i really really really need alot of time... pls dun rush me!!! i'm thinking everyday & my brain is cracking...
on sat i fainted & tat day, i haf learn my lesson... i really dun noe how much time i haf cuz de doctor already say i always nelgect my health & now he say once i really fall sick i muz really see a doctor & eat my medicine if not even god also cannot save me!!! i'm really scare... when i fainted, my whole mind was full wif dear & i was really afraid tat i can't see & talk 2 dear again!!! i dun wish tat 2 happen!!! i juz wan 2 spend de times i haf now 2 do things tat i like & wan!!! i really had nightmare, i had enough!!! i juz wan 2 sleep peacefully every nite but i juz can't... there's so many prob bothering me & nobody will noe!!! i need 2 rest now, my heart pains often now & i juz wan 2 say sorry!!! take care ppl!!!
2 b With him forever :D
Fufilled or Unfufilled
Get good results
Earn more money
Big pooh bear
More Bears
New green watch
More shoes
Nice clothes
hope 2 celebrate my birthday wif u!!!
loves & hates
LOVES
you
green addidas watch/bag
good results
green, is my life
music, my passion
soccer
basketball
cycling
bowling
swimming
tanning
playing computer
hanging out wif frenz
run
go online
go shopping
chat on de fone
listen 2 music
sleep
HATES
Liar
Betrayer
Backstabber
Teacher
Some PPL in my class
My sibling
Parents who nag
